dreaded pms

im in a 'state of depression' for almost a week now and i think i have to blame it to pms. i just hate it. this hormonal imbalance is affecting my studies. midterms is barely a week and i haven't finished anything yet. hay...

i've been texting friends asking how they've been doing... hoping i'll be feeling less lonely after the conversation. well, it did help but this hormonal thing is just so empowering. i just want this to be over really soon. sana bukas meron na para matapos na tong kaartehan na to. hahaha.

nakakainis talaga.

good thing i have a personal psychologist to aid me in my distress. hehe.

haaay....

this week's highlights

i was really looking forward to post something at the end of the week but geez, im getting busier and more anxious every day. midterms is fast approaching and i still have a lot of readings to catch up. hay, the life of a med student... moreso, the life of a third year med student. hehe. here are the highlights of my week.



on this site will rise....

• lobby entrance of the medical center

• commercial arcade ( i hope they'll have starbucks at least. hehe)

• 8 suites which are of two kinds, one has a kitchen of its own and the other, a receiving area. sorry, nawawala yung picture nito. i knew i had uploaded it somewhere....

tuesday

i had clinical ward. my patient this time suffers from drug induced gouty arthritis. he's very emaciated and in pain due to the lesions he's got in all his limbs.

the view ain't so good no? i just took a stolen photo of the guy. i dont have the guts to find a better view and mag- ala professional photographer pa dun. hehe.

thursday

i was able to watch a procedure in gastro. they inserted a PEG tube into the patient's upper gastroinestinal tract in case he's esophagus will undergo stricture due to his progressing laryngoesophageal cancer. so i advice you people, smoking is dangerous for your health and very dangerous for your appetite.

the finish product. the tube inserted in the epigastrium.

what's friday without surgery?

im beginning to love surgery. i thought when friday comes, i'll be sitting in the full eight hours trying my best to fight boredom. but hey, those guys from surgery really make our week everytime. they don't just teach us surgical stuffs but they give us good advices in the practice. and i love to hear their stories, thinking that someday, i'll be as successful and fulfilled like they are now. hmmm.

this friday, i became especially proud of being an feu- med student. I learned from Dr. Porciuncula (our lecturer for today) that Dr. Kim Shi Tan, the current head of our surgery department is the founding president of the laparoscopic cholecystectomy in the Philippines. wow talaga. next week, i'll be meeting him face to face for the first time. he's going to have a make- up class with us probably on wednesday. i hope this time he'll make it.

Dr. Porciuncula is the chairman of surgery in UDMC and also practice in FEU medical center and St. Luke's as a colorectal surgeon. sorry, i dont have a picture of him. nahihiya ako e... hehehe. but it's interesting to know that he loves photography. he's taking pictures anywhere he goes and shows them to class in his lectures.

our alumni from 25 years back are having their homecoming this week. i was in awe to see their proposed project of the new lobby etc of the hospital. parang ala- medical city ang dating! i'll try my best to take a picture of it next time. they're already starting the construction and i heard, the budget was tumataginting na 56 million pesos. and it's gonna be finished 8 months from now.

the picture was taken while waiting for our preceptorial class moderator in surgery.

toxic

in chaos i found order.
in letters i found wisdom.
in answers i found more questions.
in pages i found miracles
in pictures i found perfection

3 shtars

our much awaited holiday get together at the coffee bean and tea leaf in gateway last jan. 2. maayos vs nang- aakit na posing.

sa kanya

dec 26 05, tagaytay. we went to people's park in the sky (known before as palace in the sky) and prayed in the shrine of our lady of perpetual love. later, we went to a zoo (i didn't get the name). the last picture was in his sister's house in cavite where we stayed for the night... bagong gising lang :)

Namulat ako at ngayo'y nag-iisa
Pagkatapos ng ulan
Bagama't nakalipas na ang mga sandali
Ay nagmumuni kung ako'y nagwagi
Pinipilit mang sabihin na ito'y wala sa akin
Ngunit bakit hanggang ngayon, nagdurugo pa rin

Sa kanya pa rin babalik sigaw, ng damdamin
Sa kanya pa rin sasaya bulong ng puso ko
Kung buhay pa ang alaala ng ating nakaraan
Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin sa kanya

At sa hatinggabi ay nag-iisa na lang
Ay minamasdan ang larawan mo
At ngayo'y bumalik nang siya'y kapiling pa
Alaala ng buong magdamag
Kung sakali man isipin na ito'y wala sa akin
Sana'y dinggin ang tinig kong nag-iisa pa rin

Sa kanya pa rin babalik sigaw, ng damdamin
Sa kanya pa rin sasaya bulong ng puso ko
Kung buhay pa ang alaala ng ating nakaraan
Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin sa kanya

Sa kanya pa rin babalik sigaw, ng damdamin
Sa kanya pa rin sasaya bulong ng puso ko
Kung buhay pa ang alaala ng ating nakaraan
Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin…
Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin
Sa kanya...

group picture! si doc mary- anne cabrera yung naka- black. teacher namin sa pathology and lab. diagnosis. sya yung adviser ng group namin

memories of lab d.

dapat matagal ko nang pinost yung mga pictures namin sa laboratory diagnosis kaya lang busy sa school at ngayong sem lang ako nabigyan ni donna ng kopya. dons, salamat!

our first communtiy project... tsaraan!!! kumuha ng dugo at peripheral blood smear. hehe. sa sauyo yung napili naming community. merong christian church na tumulong sa min kaya dun namin ginawa ang mga kahindik hindik na pagkuha ng dugo. mwehehehe.

hala mark, piaiyak mo ata!

chika chika, kuha ng bp, sige pa arfie, ngiti lang habang nagsusulat. hehehe

o, biruin nyo, dinala pa namin sa site etong mga precious microscopes namin. pati na rin yung mga centrifuge machine, slides, at stains dala namin. para kaming moving laboratory.

girl power!

messages sent

i just thought of writing something for everyone...at least for those people whom i have been with for the longest time without having the chance to say what i really feel about. hehehe. i guess i just feel a little sentimental now that 2005 is about to end. happy new year, everyone! i hope next year will be a fruitful year for all of us.

• ate noreen, thank you for being my 'kasangga' in school. i know i'm a pain in the ass but you're the only one who could endure my kakulitan and katarayan. thank you. i really appreciate you for being like a big sister. i'm looking forward for more days of tsismisan. i'll always be your friend even if we're tons of handouts apart. hehehe.
• mom and dad, the more i mature, the more i appreciate everything you have done for us. now i realized how lucky i was to be born in this family. thank you for all the sacrifices that you did. i love you.
• papsi, no matter where you will be, always remember that there's someone you can look back to. we'll be here, always proud of whatever you will achieve. papsi, salamat. for all the help you've given me. may the Lord bless you with so much more. i also wish that in God's time, you'll find the girl that will complete your happiness.
• ishtar, though there are times the two of us don't like each other's ways without making it obvious to both of us :) , i want you to know that i love you. i treat you not just a friend but a sister. from the bottom of my heart, i want you to know that i'm happy for you and your new lovelife. thank you, kase pinagtyagaan mo yung kasungitan at katarayan ko hehehe. andito lang ako lagi. medyo busy nga lang. :)
• dryn, our friendship might not be the same as before but i want you to know that you are still welcome to cry on my shoulders. i hope, what happened to us will be a lesson not just to you but for both of us. i have already forgiven you. i pray you'll find that someone who's really meant for you... in God's time.
• baby, if there's one person that i know whom his heart i have cut so deep, it's yours. from the bottom of my heart, i'm sorry. it's only now that i have realized that it's not only you who was to blame. i also had my share of mistakes. i didn't have faith in your decisions. i only noticed your mistakes and not your good deeds. i failed to see how little the effort i was exerting... it seems i failed to see the good things that was in you because i was always looking for more. i'm sorry for blaming you for everything and for not giving you a chance. i hope in time we find it in our hearts to forgive each other.

Merry Christmas, everyone!

All my life,
I've tried to do what's right.
First star I see tonight,
Make my wish come true:
Why can't we
Join hands around one tree,
Let live and let it be,
And make Christmas last forever?

When Santa's flyin' in his magic sleigh,
Goes all around the world in just a day,
From the North Pole to the southern tip,
He makes his trip with love to give away.
Hear him say..........

It's Christmas all over the world tonight,
It's Christmas all over the world.

All my life, I've learned if I was good,
Did ev'rything I should,
My dreams would all come true.
I can see
A special night when we
Join hands around one tree
And make Christmas last forever!

It's Christmas all over the world tonight (all over the world),
It's Christmas all over the world.

toxicity level on the rise

its five days before the first prelims. gawd, i'm getting very anxious about it... i hope i'll get through it with flying colors.

knina, i rode a taxi to get to school. first time kong ginawa yun. :) pano ba naman, 6.45 na hindi pa din ako nakakasakay. may qiuz pa namna ako ng pedia. i was crying and cursing my fate. pano, i only slept for three hours para lang matapos kong aralin lahat, tapos hindi lang ako makakapag- quiz dahil late ako. it was 7am when a taxi passed by. i grabbed the chance. 'bahala na' sabi ko. i told the driver, 'manong, sa feu hospital po. paki bilisan lang. nagmamadali po talaga ako.' the driver, heeding my request drove ala fast and the furious. ambilis talaga! aakalain mong ambulansya ang dina- drive nya :) syempre ako sa backseat, aral pa din. i trusted him na hindi kami mababangga. well, that's all i can do, e. i arrived at 7.15. my teacher entered the room at 7.45. hehe. kung sumama ako sa ate kong mag- bus, hindi pa din ako considered na late. pero hindi ako nanghihinayang. hehehe.

merry christmas!

updates on my life so far:

• super busy pa din. lalo na ngayon, prelims is fast approaching. i'm gonna have my exams on dec. 14 to 21. birthday pa naman ni daddy sa 14. sana kung may handaan man, simple lang para naman makapag- aral ako.
• nalulunod na ko sa dami ng handouts! hindi biro ang 17 subjects ha!
  
• yesterday was my lola's first year death anniversary. syempre may handa. sabi ni mommy konti lang daw pero nung nakita ko pag- uwi ko, mukhang pang party. hay, nako. what's new with mom?
• nakanood na ko ng harry potter!!! hahaha! yahooo!

yun lang. got to run. still have to go to surgery department. i'm going to ask what's the best management for my mom's cholelithiasis (gall stones) and how much lap chole costs.

have a nice weekend , everyone!

hi everyone!

kamusta? namiss nyo ba ako? hehehehe. sorry ngayon lang ako nagkaroon ng time. it seems were getting busier every week. for this week, i have three reports, 3 quizzes and 1 shifting exams, at tatlong make- up classes para sa mga subjects namin sa monday kase holiday. to top ot all, duty ko last monday and this friday sa ward. mukhang makakatulog ata ako sa overnight duty sa friday sa sobrang pagod. :) ooops, pero hindi naman ako nagrereklamo. hehe. nakakatuwa nga kase puro clinical na lessons namin and lahat na ng lecturers namin ngayon are the best clinicians we have in the medical center.

meron kaming class called Clinico- pathologic conference every thursday. it's one of the highlights in third year kase that's when they make us feel that they are welcoming us to the physician's world. a case is given to us every week (history of a patient and his course in the ward.true to life yun ha) and were gathered (all third year that is, 300+ of us) in a hall. one student is chosen (by lottery) to present the case, give the diagnosis, differentials and pathophysiology with all the clinicians, residents, pathologists, and students seated before him. mukhang nakakatakot no? hehe. sa umpisa lang yun kase sa bandang huli sila- sila na nag- didiskusyon kung ano ba talagang diagnosis. para kaming pinaglalaruan ng mga pathologists. kase at the end of it, sila magdidiscuss kung ano yung autopsy findings, thus telling us what is really the disease of the patient. hehe. nakakatuwa talaga sila.

sige na. nagugutom na ko. lunch break lang namin. hehe. next time ulit!

miss you all!!!

the miraculous virgin of antipolo

oh miraculous virgin, bless the wish that you have granted.

thank you.

i love you then i hate you then i learned

my turn has come. sometimes it takes time to get a person far enough to see the whole picture.i'm happy coz i can see my mistakes now. i'm learning.