LSS

kanina ko pa to pinapaulit ulit. haha. heard it while at work so i looked it up in youtube. hay. i just love listening to it. parang ang sarap sarap ma-inlove hihihi.



dont mind the lyrics though. parang joke kase eh. haha. i wish i can find a piano piece of this. i want to learn how to play this song. pramis!




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when you find it don't let go...

happy valentines, everyone. i wish you all more love throughout the year.





i wish i have a voice like hers. so powerful and timeless.





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wish ko lang

hay. i wish to be loved like this. haha. ambisyosa.










but maybe it has more impact if he's gonna do more than that, di ba? i mean, if you love someone, mag-iintay ka nalang ba? life is short. time is wasted. haha. ambisyosa talaga.
naku wala akong pinapatamaan. shucks. i just happen to like this song.




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my answer

i believe there's nothing wrong with taking a break nor to stop for a while to smell the flowers. especially when life has been like riding a speed bus.

so para sa mga nagtatanong kung bakit wala pa din akong ginagawa sa buhay ko, eto po ang sagot.







akala nyo lang wala. pero meron, meron, meron!


tamang tama ang pagpunta ko sa calatagan last weekend. i was there once again breathing fresh air and then they all drifted away. i was free once more.

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another northern star?

pahabol ito sa araw ng three kings.




i can't recall if i have heard this song already but it really touched my heart hearing it now...




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duets

ive been listening to this song the whole night and this morning too. ganda. didn't know they were pinoy until i saw this in youtube. kudos rey and kaye for the very good rendition.








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hang on till tomorrow

ganda ng boses ng batang ito. mala- anghel ang dating.

this is my favorite song right now. so full of hope for the future.

our bathroom in the first floor is currently under renovation. mom and i went to ace hardware earlier to window shop tiles and ceramics. i think mom wants to have an outdoor feel for the new bathroom. gusto nya yung parang bato- bato effect na tiles for the floor. naaliw naman ako sa gusto ni mother. hehe. excited na ko na makita ang outcome. sana maganda. crossing my fingers.




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crossing my fingers

my week consists of studying andrew's then thinking, re- evaluating, and planning my next step. pedia or derma? hmmm. i still want to try on both. and freaking out to get the cash i need to meet the uber expensive application gimmicks of derma. i'm shelling out thousands of cash from my own pocket for those exams. ouch!

im dying to get into residency. i never planned to stay long in moonlighting. it's not that i don't enjoy earning money but time is more of my concern. time is precious for me. also, i wanted the perks that goes with residency like living in the metro (sorry mom) and hopefully hopefully getting a car (crossing my fingers). i like the idea of living alone. nobody knows how proud i feel whenever i go to the grocery alone buying stuffs for my apartment. hay. i really love being independent.

i was hoping to post a picture of ponds' latest facial foam with salysilic acid. i saw its advertisement while watching my favorite soap (tayong dalawa). i made a mental note to buy one when i pass by watson's but had second thoughts when i remembered i recently bought the new nivea deep pore cleanser which i haven't used yet.

i added links here to the blogs that i am addicted to. i don't know personally the owners of those blogs but sure know them since almost all of them are celebrities and one is a sister of my colleague. the common interests we share made me a follower. the things they post from architecture, clothes, accessories, food, landscapes, places and other beautiful things plus the inspiring thoughts they write makes me dream more, hope more, aspire more and yes, sometimes drool. someday someday i will land in one of those lifestyle shows and they will feature my house, farm, business establishment, or luxury vacation house. hehe

there's this song from boyz II men that was playing in my head since yesterday. sort of last song syndrome. im pretty lucky i got the song in my iTunes. the title is water runs dry. i really love it. arrangement was nice. although the lyrics is a little sad and i can't relate to it as of pres time. i guess it's the voice quality and harmony that makes it really sounds good. the voice of boyz II men is timeless! i also love the new buble's song haven't met you yet. can't help but replay it 10x before i move on to the next track. hehe.

this camera i like. hmmm kelan kaya ako magkakroon ng ganito?

the , canon g11









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songs for you

for a few weeks now, ive been in a 'last song syndrome' mode. im singing from my most recent memory of the songs my ear caught somewhere. well some became my favorite since they depict what i feel for someone. hehe. theme song ang dating. here they go:

• sometimes i run/ sometimes i hide/ sometimes i'm scared of you/ but all i really want is to hold you tight/ treat you right/ be with you day and night/ baby all i need is time

• i hate how much i love you, boy/ i cant stand how much i need you/ i hate how much i love you boy/ and i just cant let you know/ that i hate that i love you so

• and i can't get you out of my dreams/now i know that you're a dangerous kind/ and your smile is tattooed on my mind.... yesterday i was feeling sad/ all i do today is trying to be brave/and no melody seems to soothe my mind/ and now i curse you for being so sweet and so kind
• So go on, go on, come on, leave me breathless/Tempt me, tease me, until I can't deny/ This loving feeling/Make me long for your kiss/ Go on (go on), go on (go on)/Yeah.../Come on

and here's the song on the top of my list:

• ang panalangin ko sa habang buhay/ makapiling ka/ makayakap ka/ yan ang panalangin ko/ at hindi papayag ang pusong ito/ mawala ka sa king piling/ mahal ko iyong dinggin

hay. this is really getting weird. it's a nice feeling having a crush once in a while. and its also kinda difficult knowing that the person i have a huge crush on is a total trash. oh well, truth bites. but hey, no one said i can't get kilig in secret. i would fantasize and dream that he's mr. perfect. he's my wish-to-be- perfect guy. i wouldn't hope though that i end up with him coz i know that would be the day that i will start cursing my life. haha. matalino na 'to!

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madel and i started our review for the boards. since news that we got said the ongoing aug boards is really tough. especially anatomy. (i think im going to befriend moore. and really try to have a special relationship with him this time). we started with patho at the beginning of this month. i chose my baby robbins (im trying to read books over reviewers now that i still have the time. focusing on topics or subjects that i'm not good at) and lend her my brs since her sister's still using theirs for her boards. well im nearly towards the end of the book and according to my sched, i should finish it by tomorrow. by monday i'll have pharma. hmm... im sticking on my sched. and so far so good.

pre- valentine's date with the philharmonic orchestra and master chorale atbp

got home two hours ago. ate, jem, paps, elaine, june, and i were in shangri la to watch the free pre- valentines concert of san miguel philharmonic orchestra and master chorale. hehe. sobrang galing nila talaga. the crowd was really delighted especially when the orchestra played cueshe's stay and hale's the day you said goodnight. in fairness, they've given a new twist to the songs. i guess it's their way of saying, 'so anong akala nyo classic songs lang kaya naming tugtugin?'and i must say, they're beautiful. ryan cayabyab was not the conductor but he was there too. and he must have been very pleased to see so many people who went there to appreciate their music.




actually, i got the info while listening for almost a week in my celphone's fm radio. got the habit of turning it on when i'm getting sleepy from studying for my midterm exam. speaking of midterms, hay... sobrang pagod na pagod na ko... may exam pa ko sa monday hehe.




i informed elaine about the concert. she's really a fan of orchestras and chorales kaya ayun, kahit major exams next week pumunta pa din. haha. hay. i really missed talking to her and baffling about anything.. i also got the chance to meet her boyfriend, june. hmm... ang ganda ng bud ko ngayon di ba? hiyang sa third year. at syempre, iba na talaga din yung may someone who makes you feel beautiful.




PICTURES

these are the pics that i have not been able to post due to my very intoxicating schedule.


April!!! she's got a spiral fractured fibula... nadapa lang yan ha. sa sobrang bigat nya, hindi nakayanan ng buto nya. kya naku... tsk tsk.. hinay hinay lang sa pagkain. sorry kung tinatamaan ka. hahaha.






my fortune plant just bloomed its first flowers! its the first time ive seen one in my whole life. at grabe, sobrang bango talaga pag gabi. hanggang loob ng bahay naamoy.

Merry Christmas, everyone!

All my life,
I've tried to do what's right.
First star I see tonight,
Make my wish come true:
Why can't we
Join hands around one tree,
Let live and let it be,
And make Christmas last forever?

When Santa's flyin' in his magic sleigh,
Goes all around the world in just a day,
From the North Pole to the southern tip,
He makes his trip with love to give away.
Hear him say..........

It's Christmas all over the world tonight,
It's Christmas all over the world.

All my life, I've learned if I was good,
Did ev'rything I should,
My dreams would all come true.
I can see
A special night when we
Join hands around one tree
And make Christmas last forever!

It's Christmas all over the world tonight (all over the world),
It's Christmas all over the world.

one less lonely heart, two more to go

He sang one of my favorite songs!

i was really impressed with the way Jay sang Iris last night. it didn't made him number one but placing fourth is still much better than his last week's ranking. kudos!


Sabi Ko Na nga Ba.

my instinct didn't fail me. i knew the story would have a happy ending after all. Congratulations, goddess!

i did contemplate about what i have written in my last entry. and it seems to me, between me and the high priest, i am the one who's not yet ready to be the next 'victim' it's been only seven months that i became free again and i knew deep inside that i still need some more time to breathe. but love moves in mysterious ways, as the song goes. and the future always bring a lot of surprises. i wouldn't anticipate what tomorrow will be. i just want to take each day as it comes. milord, let's take our time and enjoy as much as we could like the way it has been. whoever among us will be the lucky one whether sooner or later, may ishtar's blessing always be with thee. as for now, it's enough to know that one among the three of us is happy... at last.


Inaantok Pero Hindi Makatulog

yan ako. hehe. i was lucky to get home early today. i was planning to catch up on my sleep. it's been three days that i have been sleeping too late and waking up too early. last weekend was really busy. for two days, i have been going to my classmates' dorm, a building just across my school, to do two papers that were due this week. when i got home, i still study for my finals in radio which i took this afternoon.

it's weird. i feel sleepy but when i go to bed and close my eyes, sleep just don't set in. grrrr. so here i am now. trying to get some of my neurons to work to write this entry. and hoping sleep will visit me later after i finished reading my handout for tomorrow's exam.

change the world

Ate Noreen and I had a late lunch today in a fast food chain somewhere along Regalado. It was actually a birthday treat. Her birthday was last week but since it was prelims week, she decided to celebrate it today. Ate's one of the few friends I have in med school. Having a little chat with her every school day alleviates my sadness. Kase, most of the time, books kaharap or hand- outs. As in ganon ka- toxic. Hindi mo na makuhang makipag- usap sa katabi mo.

Hay, it's nice to have her around. Someone older to understand and to listen. And to divert my attention to something else like family life, motherhood and the likes.

While waiting for her to return to our table, I just realized why parang may mabigat sa dibdib ko since the moment we entered the resto.. Hmmm. Blame it to the place. I was there exactly one year, eight months and twenty three days ago. And I haven't returned there since then… until today.

Papsi and I were in Gateway the other day. On our way there, this song was on the radio.

If I could reach the stars I'd pull one down for you
Shine it on my heart so you could see the truth
That this love I have inside is everything it seems
But for now I find it's only in my dreams

That I can change the world
I would be the sunlight in your universe
You will think my love was really something good
Baby if I could change the world

If I could be king even for a day
I'd take you as my queen I'd have it no other way
And our love will rule in this kingdom we have made
Till then I'd be a fool wishin' for the day

That I can change the world
I would be the sunlight in your universe
You will think my love was really something good
Baby if I could change the world
Baby if I could change the world

That I can change the world
I would be the sunlight in your universe
You will think my love was really something good
Baby if I could change the world
Baby if I could change the world
Baby if I could change the world

-change the world by eric clapton-

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i had another nightmare last night. i thought i wouldn't be able to regain consciousness. thank God i did. i was so scared i slept in my parent's room. i hope tonight i won't have another one.

walang hanggang paalam

do you know this song? this one's a favorite of elaine, ate aileen, and me when we were in tiples dorm. just remembering the good old days. i miss my bud.

di ba tayo'y narito
upang maging malaya
at upang palayain ang iba
ako'y walang hinihiling
ika'y tila ganoon din
sadya'y bigyang-laya ang isa't-isa

ang pag-ibig natin ay
walang hanggang paalam
at habang magkalayo
papalapit pa rin ang puso
kahit na magkahiwalay
tayo ay magkasama
sa magkabilang dulo ng mundo

ang bawat simula ay
siya ring katapusan
may patutunguhan ba
ang ating pagsinta
sa biglang tingin
kita'y walang kinabukasan
subalit di-malupig ang pag-asa

ang pag-ibig natin ay
walang hanggang paalam
at habang magkalayo
papalapit pa rin ang puso
kahit na magkahiwalay
tayo ay magkasama
sa magkabilang dulo ng mundo

this pinoy song is one of those 'tagos sa buto.' i guess ganun talaga effect pag tagalog. :)

school starts on monday. don't think i'm already prepared for it. i'm still used to my couch potato attitude. hay, don't have time anymore for warm up. goodluck to me!

Now I can Dance

some of the songs that i have posted here may have created (again) some sort of commotion. i do not wish to receive any hate comments again. hahaha! if you don't like it then don't read it. sorry, but i don't need that extra attention. give it to the others. they couldve thanked you for it. hahaha!

by the way, this one i'm posting for a purpose.

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So I hope this finds you well

Sun is shining down eastern valley ways

There's some news I need to tell you

Give my Mother a kiss

Tell her I'm ok

I recall her words

"If it's too easy

It never lasts

I have compromised

But I'm finally free of the past

Now I can dance

Clouds have all disappeared

Freedom

I hold so dear

Cause nobody knows me here

Though I can only imagine the sadness

In your eyes

Please understand

Now I can dance

All alone the other night

I came to realise we'd be friends for life

It was always meant to be

For some people the heavens can get it so right

Like an angel you see

You have graciously offered a hand

You'd be so proud of me

Now I'm finally taking a stand

Now I can dance

Clouds have all disappeared

Freedom I hope so dear

Cause nobody knows me here

Though I can only imagine the sadness

In your eyes

Please understand

Now I can dance

Now I can dance

Now I can dance

Clouds have all disappeared

Freedom I hope so dear

Cause nobody knows me here

Though I can only imagine the sadnessyou eyes

Please understand

Now I can dance

Though I can only imagine the sadness

In your eyes

Please understand

Now I can dance

So I hope this finds you well

Sun is shining down eastern valley ways

So good

Be free

Can dance and laugh and just be me

So good

Be free

The clouds above have disappeared

'the sweetest songs...

... are those that tell of saddest things'

Sometimes i sit at home and wonder how it'd be
If he had loved me
Truly loved me yes
I learned a while ago that kind of thing
Never happens for me
And so i go around
And just pretend
Loving life for me
I play the circus clown around my friends
Make them laugh and they won't see
That you never let them see you sweat
Don't want them to think the pain runs deep
Lord knows it's killing me

So i put on my make-up
Put a smile on my face
And if anyone asks me
Everything is okay
I'm laughing cause no one
Knows the joke is on me
Cause i'm dying inside
With my pride and a smile
On my face
On my face

Sing it la la la la

Sometimes i sit at home
By the phone hoping he might call me
But he don't call me
But then i realize
Dreams come true aren't for girls like me
Not like me
And so i go around with my head up
Like it ain't no thing
And when the boys around with all my friends
I'm into other things
Because you never let them see you sweat
Don't want them to think the pain runs deep
Lord knows it's killing me

So i put on my make-up
Put a smile on my face
And if anyone asks me
Everything is okay
I'm laughing cause no one
Knows the joke is on me
Cause i'm dying inside
With my pride and a smile
On my face
On my face

It's not an easy (thing)
Sometimes it's hard to (face the truth)
It's not the life that i would choose (that i would choose)
But what else can i do?
If he don't love me
If he don't want me
I'm not about to sit around
Let myself go

When you get caught in the rain with no where to run
When you're distraught and in pain without anyone
When you keep crying out to be saved
But nobody comes and you feel so far away
That you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone
It's okay, what you say is
I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain
And if you keep falling down don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound, so keep pressing on steadfastly
And you'll find what you need to prevail
What you say is

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

And when the rain blows, as shadows grow close don't be afraid
There's nothing you can't face
And should they tell you you'll never pull through
Don't hesitate, stand tall and say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

I can make it through the rain
And I live once again
And I live one more day
And I can make it through the rain
(Yes you can)
You will make it through the rain

Emotions...

It's over and done
But the heartache lives on inside
And who is the one you're clinging to
Instead of me tonight?

And where are you now, now that i need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go (go)
Cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You'll never see me fall apart
In the words of a broken heart

It's just emotion's taking me over
Caught up in sorrow, lost in my song
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Dont you know there's nobody left in this world
To hold me tight
Dont you' know there's nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

I'm there at your side,
A part of all the things you are
But you've got a part of someone else
You've got to go find your shining star

And where are you now, now that i need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart
In the words of a broken heart

It's just emotion that's taking me over
Caught up in sorrow, lost in the song
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Dont you know there's nobody left in this world
To hold me tight
Nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

And where are you now, now that i need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart
In the words of a broken heart

It's just emotion that's taken me over
Caught up in sorrow, lost in the song
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Nobody left in this world
To hold me tight
Nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

oh buble!

he is truly the king of croon
...sing me to sleep

Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

beating insomnia

mahirap magpa- antok...

Good bye, it’s time for me to go.
I’ll call you in the morning so I can let you know.
I know it hasn’t been easy to love a man like me.
Someday if we try there will be no goodbyes, and we will live happily.
Cuz I’ll be there one day and you’ll be right next to me.
I’ll be there one day and you will be right next to me.
Hey there, will you be where I am?
Will you be by myside girl, or with another man?
Just wait a little longer, girl
I don’t know how long.
Just try to understand this is not what I planned.
I’m sorry this had to be.
Oh girl, every man needs a woman.
You’re the woman that I choose and I can’t afford to lose you baby.
I’ll be there one day and you will be right next to me.
I’ll be there one day and you will be right next to me.
I swear to the world, you’ll always be my girl.
Just say you’ll be, right next to me.
I’ll be there one day
And you’ll be right next to me.