cool change

i didn't realize how hot the weather has become until i finally left the house and visited my old neighborhood in the city. malamig pa rin naman dito sa min. nakakatulog pa din ako na hindi kailangan kahit electric fan. pero sa city, hay naku ang init! and this rotating brownout really sucks big time. kamusta naman talaga. dati pag walang koryente at mainit, yung mga tao pumupunta sa mall para magpalamig pero ngayon kahit sa mall mainit na rin. considering na nasa isa sa mga ayala malls ako kanina huh. hindi kinaya ng generator nila ang mga pangyayari. ayun, 9pm pa lang nagsasara na lahat ng boutiques at kainan. eh usually may bukas pa till 10pm di ba? feel ko pa naman sana manood kanina ng sine pero wag nalang. baka pati sa sinehan mawalan ng power eh hindi ko makakayanan andun sa loob ng ganun kadilim. iaasa ko nalang yan sa dibidi. parang naging isang greenhouse nalang ang trinoma kanina at factory ng carbon dioxide. hirap huminga. para kang mauubusan ng hangin sa loob katulad ng naranasan ng namatay na mga isda sa dalampasigan ng laguna de bay.

ibang klase talaga ang taon na to. di pa tapos ang first quarter pero andami na nangyari. para akong may scolio na pilit itinutuwid and likod. ouch! on the first day of this month came the realization of how much i miss doing the consultation thing; seeing patients again, listening to their problems, and making them well. thanks to ate madel who dragged me to a medical mission somewhere in malolos. it was more like an omen though coz i lost my so called job when i got home.

kamustasa talaga. im the girl who almost lost everything. I --- lost friends, lost job, lost my only source of income for four months. hay buhay. pero kahit pa, i never questioned God. i didn't ask if this was His way of showing His love for me. i have faith that everything has it's purpose and are always for the better. it wasn't a question of love. it's a matter of faith. i remember when i had to leave my job(s) because of my condition, i thought i would go back to my old parasite self asking mom for my needs and wants but then i was able to find another job that suits my restrictions. when my life was in the trough, He didn't leave me empty handed. so Now, maybe, this is His way of telling me that those days were over. now i must go and claim my life back.

lo and behold, after three days, meron na kong nahanap na bagong raket. eto lang ang masarap sa pagmomoonlight. pag ayaw mo na, e di iwan mo. madaling umayaw, at madali ding humanap ng iba. para ka lang nagpapalit ng panty. hehe. but, at isang malaking BUT yun, quality ones are so hard to find. sana lang enjoy tong nahanap ko kase mejo matagal din akong mawawala.

so a few days from now, ill be leaving this hot and humid place with it's rotating brownouts. ill be in that small island somewhere in the south, alone, to do what i missed doing and enjoy the rush of the ocean.



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pick up lines

okay. i must admit i am enjoying those pick up lines. i do not believe any of them and i know its not getting anywhere. but they really make me laugh. and no im not sharing them. its for my eyes only haha.




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fragments

"It is only in the mysterious equations of love that any logical reason can be found."


it's my last day here in elaine's apartment. i'll be back home tomorrow. sigh. i wonder how's everybody back home.

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yesterday i was walking in the streets of rizal avenue after my shift in jose reyes. i felt a sense of freedom. i realized, if we are still together, id probably be scared walking on that street alone... but now i know i can do it. and it feels so good.

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i still haven't made up my mind where i 'm gonna apply for internship. hmmm... saan kaya?

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i finished the whole season of grey's. bitin! kelan ba lalabas yung kasunod???

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magaling magdala:
'kakabreak mo lang? di halata. mukhang ok ka naman.'

Single and Fabulous

I watched a Sex and the City's episode, 'They Shoot Single People, Don't They?' I also asked their questions to myself. Questions like, 'is faking it better than being alone?' or are we faking being happy being single?' thinking about them still amuse me. I knew everything wrong about single-blessedness before I entered a relationship and almost everything right about it now that I'm out of it ('almost' kse hindi pa naman masyadong katagalan hehehe).
Maybe God just wanted me to experience the difference of a complicated and a peaceful life so that when I get back to the latter, I will treasure it. (but i'm no hypocrite to say that sometimes i do miss being attached.)

Now I know why you can't have everything, all at the same time. because it makes things complicated for you to enjoy them. I'm learning :b

I'm single and fabulous exclamation point.