memories of lab d.

dapat matagal ko nang pinost yung mga pictures namin sa laboratory diagnosis kaya lang busy sa school at ngayong sem lang ako nabigyan ni donna ng kopya. dons, salamat!

our first communtiy project... tsaraan!!! kumuha ng dugo at peripheral blood smear. hehe. sa sauyo yung napili naming community. merong christian church na tumulong sa min kaya dun namin ginawa ang mga kahindik hindik na pagkuha ng dugo. mwehehehe.

hala mark, piaiyak mo ata!

chika chika, kuha ng bp, sige pa arfie, ngiti lang habang nagsusulat. hehehe

o, biruin nyo, dinala pa namin sa site etong mga precious microscopes namin. pati na rin yung mga centrifuge machine, slides, at stains dala namin. para kaming moving laboratory.

girl power!

messages sent

i just thought of writing something for everyone...at least for those people whom i have been with for the longest time without having the chance to say what i really feel about. hehehe. i guess i just feel a little sentimental now that 2005 is about to end. happy new year, everyone! i hope next year will be a fruitful year for all of us.

• ate noreen, thank you for being my 'kasangga' in school. i know i'm a pain in the ass but you're the only one who could endure my kakulitan and katarayan. thank you. i really appreciate you for being like a big sister. i'm looking forward for more days of tsismisan. i'll always be your friend even if we're tons of handouts apart. hehehe.
• mom and dad, the more i mature, the more i appreciate everything you have done for us. now i realized how lucky i was to be born in this family. thank you for all the sacrifices that you did. i love you.
• papsi, no matter where you will be, always remember that there's someone you can look back to. we'll be here, always proud of whatever you will achieve. papsi, salamat. for all the help you've given me. may the Lord bless you with so much more. i also wish that in God's time, you'll find the girl that will complete your happiness.
• ishtar, though there are times the two of us don't like each other's ways without making it obvious to both of us :) , i want you to know that i love you. i treat you not just a friend but a sister. from the bottom of my heart, i want you to know that i'm happy for you and your new lovelife. thank you, kase pinagtyagaan mo yung kasungitan at katarayan ko hehehe. andito lang ako lagi. medyo busy nga lang. :)
• dryn, our friendship might not be the same as before but i want you to know that you are still welcome to cry on my shoulders. i hope, what happened to us will be a lesson not just to you but for both of us. i have already forgiven you. i pray you'll find that someone who's really meant for you... in God's time.
• baby, if there's one person that i know whom his heart i have cut so deep, it's yours. from the bottom of my heart, i'm sorry. it's only now that i have realized that it's not only you who was to blame. i also had my share of mistakes. i didn't have faith in your decisions. i only noticed your mistakes and not your good deeds. i failed to see how little the effort i was exerting... it seems i failed to see the good things that was in you because i was always looking for more. i'm sorry for blaming you for everything and for not giving you a chance. i hope in time we find it in our hearts to forgive each other.

Merry Christmas, everyone!

All my life,
I've tried to do what's right.
First star I see tonight,
Make my wish come true:
Why can't we
Join hands around one tree,
Let live and let it be,
And make Christmas last forever?

When Santa's flyin' in his magic sleigh,
Goes all around the world in just a day,
From the North Pole to the southern tip,
He makes his trip with love to give away.
Hear him say..........

It's Christmas all over the world tonight,
It's Christmas all over the world.

All my life, I've learned if I was good,
Did ev'rything I should,
My dreams would all come true.
I can see
A special night when we
Join hands around one tree
And make Christmas last forever!

It's Christmas all over the world tonight (all over the world),
It's Christmas all over the world.

toxicity level on the rise

its five days before the first prelims. gawd, i'm getting very anxious about it... i hope i'll get through it with flying colors.

knina, i rode a taxi to get to school. first time kong ginawa yun. :) pano ba naman, 6.45 na hindi pa din ako nakakasakay. may qiuz pa namna ako ng pedia. i was crying and cursing my fate. pano, i only slept for three hours para lang matapos kong aralin lahat, tapos hindi lang ako makakapag- quiz dahil late ako. it was 7am when a taxi passed by. i grabbed the chance. 'bahala na' sabi ko. i told the driver, 'manong, sa feu hospital po. paki bilisan lang. nagmamadali po talaga ako.' the driver, heeding my request drove ala fast and the furious. ambilis talaga! aakalain mong ambulansya ang dina- drive nya :) syempre ako sa backseat, aral pa din. i trusted him na hindi kami mababangga. well, that's all i can do, e. i arrived at 7.15. my teacher entered the room at 7.45. hehe. kung sumama ako sa ate kong mag- bus, hindi pa din ako considered na late. pero hindi ako nanghihinayang. hehehe.

merry christmas!

updates on my life so far:

• super busy pa din. lalo na ngayon, prelims is fast approaching. i'm gonna have my exams on dec. 14 to 21. birthday pa naman ni daddy sa 14. sana kung may handaan man, simple lang para naman makapag- aral ako.
• nalulunod na ko sa dami ng handouts! hindi biro ang 17 subjects ha!
  
• yesterday was my lola's first year death anniversary. syempre may handa. sabi ni mommy konti lang daw pero nung nakita ko pag- uwi ko, mukhang pang party. hay, nako. what's new with mom?
• nakanood na ko ng harry potter!!! hahaha! yahooo!

yun lang. got to run. still have to go to surgery department. i'm going to ask what's the best management for my mom's cholelithiasis (gall stones) and how much lap chole costs.

have a nice weekend , everyone!

hi everyone!

kamusta? namiss nyo ba ako? hehehehe. sorry ngayon lang ako nagkaroon ng time. it seems were getting busier every week. for this week, i have three reports, 3 quizzes and 1 shifting exams, at tatlong make- up classes para sa mga subjects namin sa monday kase holiday. to top ot all, duty ko last monday and this friday sa ward. mukhang makakatulog ata ako sa overnight duty sa friday sa sobrang pagod. :) ooops, pero hindi naman ako nagrereklamo. hehe. nakakatuwa nga kase puro clinical na lessons namin and lahat na ng lecturers namin ngayon are the best clinicians we have in the medical center.

meron kaming class called Clinico- pathologic conference every thursday. it's one of the highlights in third year kase that's when they make us feel that they are welcoming us to the physician's world. a case is given to us every week (history of a patient and his course in the ward.true to life yun ha) and were gathered (all third year that is, 300+ of us) in a hall. one student is chosen (by lottery) to present the case, give the diagnosis, differentials and pathophysiology with all the clinicians, residents, pathologists, and students seated before him. mukhang nakakatakot no? hehe. sa umpisa lang yun kase sa bandang huli sila- sila na nag- didiskusyon kung ano ba talagang diagnosis. para kaming pinaglalaruan ng mga pathologists. kase at the end of it, sila magdidiscuss kung ano yung autopsy findings, thus telling us what is really the disease of the patient. hehe. nakakatuwa talaga sila.

sige na. nagugutom na ko. lunch break lang namin. hehe. next time ulit!

miss you all!!!

the miraculous virgin of antipolo

oh miraculous virgin, bless the wish that you have granted.

thank you.

i love you then i hate you then i learned

my turn has come. sometimes it takes time to get a person far enough to see the whole picture.i'm happy coz i can see my mistakes now. i'm learning.

hay mama!

bumaba ako kanina para mag- saing. tamang- tama, andun si mami.ewan ko kung anong nangyari at all of a sudden naging issue ang pagiging unattached ko. hay, hindi ako sanay ha. you know naman, she's not the type of mom na ok lang i- open ang lovelife. kakaloka talaga. dapat daw i should entertain suitors at maganda daw kung ngayon pa lang may steady boyfriend na ko dahil baka malipasan ako ng panahon. aray ko! ano ba yan?! natawa na lang ako. akala nya siguro virginal beauty pa ako pagdating sa pakikipag- relasyon. kung alam lang nya ang nakaraan hahaha! sugurado ako, hindi sya sasang- ayon. hehehe.

maya- maya, hindi pa nakuntento. there goes the name dropping. tinatanong ako about aldryn. she said, he seems to be a good guy, wala akong iintindihin kase stable, maganda ang work, mabait naman...(naku, at nakakuha ng abogado ang loko) at dinugtungan ko ng '...binasted ko na yun.' hay nako, i had my reasons for turning him down and those are really good reasons.na- turn off na ko sa kanya. a basta. for now, ayaw. shoo. tsupi! hehehe.

ano ba ito?! siguro iniisip ni mommy na nagmumukha na kong mongha. lagi na lang kase akong nandito sa bahay. hay, kung kelan pa naman na-realize ko na mas mabuti kung wag na lang muna ako sumabak sa ganyang mga bagay.

don't worry mom, darating din ako dyan. hinay- hinay lang muna, mahina ang kalaban. hehehe

to the stars... with difficulty

Yesterday was my enrollment. There was a feeling of elation and sense of pride as I went to the registrar window and asked for the C.O.M. for third year. Hay, sa wakas!

It's true that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I once stumbled and fall. I reckon the hardship I have faced as I retraced my footsteps. The self- struggle and self- pity that I have went through. The days that though seems to be endless, I still believed with my heart and soul that this too shall come to pass like all the other temporary defeat that I've been through.

Looking back, I have realized there are things you appreciate more after rediscovering them. There are things that become more meaningful when you grasp it again after slipping from your fingers.

Medicine is surely the hardest climb I ever have so far. Now that I have regained my footing, I know that the climb will be tougher and steeper as I continue to reach the peak. I just pray that I won't stumble and fall once again. ^__^ I guess now, after all that I've been through, I will always be on guard carefully planting my next steps. ^__^

Yes, 'what doesn't kill you makes you stronger' and it also makes you wiser and better.

dreams, decision, isolation... loneliness

There comes a time in a person's life that he must make a decision for himself. It's a part of maturing that one day, you realized that you are tired of drifting where the tides take you and finally take the courage to swim in a different direction.

Some things are easier said than done. When everything is planned in your mind, thinking that all the steps seems plausible, somehow it gives you a sense of assurance that everything will run smoothly. And as one by one you are taking the steps towards your goal, you discern the things that you have compromised. It's sad when you realize your decision somehow also leads you to isolation.

Looking back at the reasons, I knew without hesitation that I have made the right decision. And I'm aware that there are things that need to be sacrificed for now. But somehow at one point or another they affect me. It's only human to feel alone and question 'why' but faith makes this human stronger and determined enough to refuse retreat.

I'm thankful that somehow, i don't feel alone anymore. It's comforting to know that there's someone i know who is also under the same circumstance. When it feels weary, it's nice to know that you have somebody that you can talk to and exchange notes on how you've been coping up. Somehow, it's easier to look at the brighter side of things. it's easier to tell yourself that what you have now is just ephemeral and time will come that you don't have deny yourself of companionship.

Maraming salamat, Papsi. For making me feel that I'm not alone. Hay, one day the two of us will reap the fruits of our labor. Just as what Barang said in one of her songs:

"There's a place for us/ Somewhere a place for us... There's a time for
us/Someday a time for us... with time to spare /Time to learn, time
to care...Someday, somewhere"

Pero hindi Paps eh.... kulang ang tenk yu... kulang ang i lab yu.... hehehe. naalala ko lang...

what happened to my list?!

hehe. i totally forgot. (you see, i'm THAT lost. hehehe) :) actually i was planning to do them next week. after i've accomplished all my business here in school.

i wasn't feeling well yesterday. all those sneezing and itchiness makes me really upset. i planned to start sorting out my handouts but then i was afraid it'll get dusty and further aggravate my irritated condition. allergic rhinitis is nature's way of telling me it's christmas time once again.

i saw the list of students who'll be having their removals in medicine. there's one hundred eight of them. o-oh... i wonder how much more next semester's life would scare me out.

i passed lab dx. thanks to God!

huh!? pffffftt!

it's been two hours that i've been staring at the computer avoiding the site feed button on every blogspot that i visited. i felt there's nothing to write about until this very moment, it dawned on me. i hate my current state. i feel lost. i mean, don't you just hate it when you've been busy for the longest time and suddenly you just have nothing to do. i know it may sound weird for those people who would enjoy studyless schooless days spending it sitting around doing nothing. yeah it's weird. i'm weird. maybe what i'm feeling is just some sort of a 'jet lag.' it will dawn on me soon.

i'm here in school's internet cafe. waiting for lab dx's final grade result. thinking what to do when i got home afterwards.

'bawal yan!'

The title is a personal joke between the goddess and me (and also a reminder for us). totally walang kinalaman for this entry. sorry papsi, next time na namin ikukwento sa yo Thank you for IMBESTIGADOR for being an eye- opener.

Bakasyon na! Examination week is over! Though I still have to spend a week in school to check my grades, do our research and other stuffs, I can already feel the relaxing air of vacation. Hmmm… finally. I can watch all the t.v. shows that I wanted, read books and magazines not related to medicine and just lie down maybe think on what to do next or just simply drift off to dreamland. But before I plunge in to slothfulness, I have made a list of things that I must do. And may I just remind myself that it's not optional but a M-U-S-T because the next four weeks will be the last vacation that I will have (hopefully… crossing my fingers) as a med student and the last chance I have to do all those things.

So what does the high priestess must accomplish?

• Clean my library. Its time to dispose all those trash that I have accumulated for the whole semester, which I'm sure, is a lot. Compile all my handouts. Segregate the handouts given to me by Ate Glo who's already a clerk now. I tell you, seeing that big plastic bag full of papers makes me feel nervous about next semester. Its like screaming to me that I will surely have A LOT to read. Btw, the handouts were only for pedia and O.B. hay nako, maloloka ako.

• Bedroom make over. Since I won't have much time to spend to clean my room, I thought of getting rid of those things that are unnecessary and accumulate a lot of dirt. That way, it would be a lot easier for me to clean it later on. Sorry, but that means all those hairy stuffs must go. I'm planning to give the stuff toys to charity for Christmas. And please, if someone reading this thought of giving me a stuff toy, I would gladly appreciate it if you change it to something else. No hairy stuff, ok? :D

• Clean the house. Time for general cleaning.

• Gardening. Now, that's something I will truly enjoy and surely miss. I also need a lot of things to do there so maybe I'll spend a week soiling my gloves. I just hope it won't rain that much.

i hope i passed everything. ^_^

Whoohoooo!

I got home early today. I'm exempted in medical parasitology final exam! That means I don't have a grade lower than 90 %. Hehe. Oh, how I love the feeling whenever I reply to the laboratory technicians in parasitology and my medtech classmates, 'no, I'm not a med tech.' For a med tech to be exempted in Para is already expected since that is considered as one of their 'forte.' But for a Biologist to top the Para class is something! Well, akala lang nila yun coz I took Para in college too (though I must say, there's a difference betweeen Para in medicine and in college. Med is more focused on the disease entity caused by the parasites and their diagnosis while Bio is more on the parasites' morphology and life stages). I guess only me and my fellow PLMayers knew that coz I've learned that not all BS Biology has parasitology in their curriculum, like Ateneo. But still, the best joy is coming home to tell my dad the good news and seeing a big smile on his face afterwards.