the past few weeks...

airsoft with my boy buds

bicol med mission. picture taken at phivocs viewing deck

my last day at the community. my big group together with the city health officers of marikina

how's my week PART 2

2nd week of the love month

• sunday was the burial of my uncle anseng who died of liver cancer. mom wasn't able to attend because she was still in the hospital recuperating.
  
• monday, mom went home already. i was absent then coz i have to take care of paying the bills and all the rest. its hard when you are the eldest 'available' child. you have to learn how to stand up for your family. it was a nice learning experience.
• wednesday, i was into binge eating. it wasnt due to an emotional crisis but it was because of the yummy danggit and sweet fish skeleton from davao. i matched it with diced kamatis which i brought from philcoa after madel and i went to the photocopy-han and isaw (darn, naubusan ba naman kami!?!) at UP and itlog na pula from pateros. my roommate and i really loved it! meron pa kaming appetizer na chicharon from bulacan (the best hehe) dipped in spiced vinegar. hmmm... it was a real delight! taob ang 2 gatang na sinaing hehe.
  
• thursday was valentine's day. i woke up happy which was surprising. bogs was the first one who greeted me and it really means so much that i was given importance by my friends. he told me he planned to wake up at midnight to greet me. he wasnt able to do that for some reason but considering his thoughtfulness was enough. lunch time neil called and told me to go to gateway at 7pm. i asked why but he was evasive. the call just gave me a feeling he's going to set me up on a blind date. so there i was todo ayos and todo bihis. haha. i arrived late at kinakabahan. neil, koy and reg were all there. then i found out i wasn't set up with anybody! they just planned a dinner date for the singles in our barkada. we had dinner in seafoods island and had boodle feast which was really yummy then had starbucks afterwards. bongga talaga coz before we started our meal the boys handed me a bouquet of roses with different colors. i was really touche'd! i'm so thankful to have friends like them. da best!
• friday (today) koy fretched me in my apartment since he did some business near my place. hehe nakakatuwa naman talaga sila.
• on sunday, neil and i are going to have our badminton match hehe. sa wakas tuloy na. and hopefully, i'll still have the energy for airsoft in the afternoon.

how's my week

• sunday, i went out with my boy buds. we decided to go to the mall of asia since jom, who just went home recently (he's now based in guam) , haven't seen the place. we watched the movie clover field (which i do not recommend for those with weak stomach because of its 'dizziness' effect) and ate at an italian resto which i forgot the name, and of course picture taking to the max. john, neil, reg, koy, jerin and i stayed a couple of hours more. we decided to eat at a fancy crepe resto overlooking the bay. then we headed for the baywalk for more picture taking.

halos kumpleto...

kami na lang ang natira



• the guys fetched me at my place in q.c. while at the car, koy bursted out his 'panghihinayang.' Quoting him: 'ikaw kase hawak mo na sa leeg si dryn pinakawalan mo pa. e di sana kasal nyo yung inattendan namin' hmmm... i didn't expect one of them felt (and see our friendship) that way. akala ko si mom lang nanghinayang e. ayun tuloy, what i all throughout our journey was explain my sideto them. promise i'm going to write another entry about this ish.



• mom was confined at the national kidney and transplant institute (NKTI) last monday. she had pelvolithotomy with cholecystectomy the following day. i was able to stay in the operating room throughout the whole procedure due to my mom's request which, im telling you was not a good experience... she's ok now. she's been walking around the room already and can go to the bathroom without a companion. she's going home on monday. thanks for the prayers!



• spending the nights at the hospital all week was like going on perpetual duty minus the never ending 'lakaran' that is. i was sleeping at the chair all week (so dabs can sleep on the sofa). My back really hurts! i miss my bed...



• my uncle whom we fondly called tata anseng died yesterday. he had liver cancer. it was just sad that it was barely a month since my uncle totong died (due to lung cancer). mom won't be able to be at the wake since my uncle's burial is tomorrow already. my the good Lord grant them eternal repose. i'll miss them...

Future agenda

• i've been gaining a lot of weight already and my tummy would testify to that. hehe. ive started wearing a velcro belt which i knew from med school doesnt really work. i still use it though to remind my self that i shouldn't give in to those yummy, mouth watering, eye popping indulgences...my favorite, my comfort foods.



• my diet plan was to do exercises like doing abs crunches and brisk walking to the q.c. circle, which is just near my place, or to the grocery. i also intend to do biking in the afternoon at the circle. neil already promised to play badminton with me during our free sundays. also, im going to try airsoft with my other boy buds which is a good form of stress release too.

the new bond movie is coming soon

the 22nd of the spy series will be shown this year and is entitled Quantum of Solace. im so excited already! sana ipalabas na sya soon!

"There is revenge, a fight within him and a need to do his job, to solve this riddle that has been given him. Everything that he understood about the world has been turned upside down ... because he has fallen in love" - Daniel Craig

DOH's interns at the lung center's conference

last month, all of us attended the 2- day conference at the Lung Center. we had a lot of fun shopping for freebies. sayang lang some went home early so they weren't included in this pic

my best friend's wedding part II

in tagaytay, we also had fun taking pictures. talaga naman game na game sa mga posing!

'tabihan nyo naman ako'

'hay john, sayang hindi natin makita ang lake.'

coffee toast. to our friendship from then until forever

si reggie at ang tissue

posing a la matrix by reg and neil

mga pare, san ba lakad natin? nakontak nyo na ba ang mga epektos? kelan ang deliver? (hehehe)

cute namin?

my new primary pic at friendster. kunyari stolen shot ito.

look at this house! it looks old but it's beautiful.

the bridesmaid and the best man

the couch

men in black

i love this pic! picture perfect

isa pa ulit!

may mini pond din sa sonya's. for nature lovers talaga

and off we go to the wedding

kasama ang anghel sa gilid ng simbahan

here comes the bridesmaid

church on the hill

my best friend's wedding

last saturday, neil, koy, reg , and i went to tagaytay for dryn's wedding which was held the following day. we met bogs in sm dasma . john followed us after attending another wedding in batangas. here are the pics.

can't resist - dryn and diane went to sunrise hotel to meet us. they were staying at sonya's garden but because were so makulit, they came over to see us.

late dinner at dencio's - john arrived at the hotel at around 10pm. after playing a few rounds of uno stacko, we had dinner at dencio's. it was almost midnight when we arrived.

picture muna while waiting for the food

afterwards, we decided to hang out at starbucks.

this was taken at the lobby of sunrise hotel

at sonya's garden - pic muna with the groom before the wedding

wedding at church on the hill - dryn's bro was my groom's man. pic was taken at the wedding march

at the reception held at splendido country club -the bride and the bridesmaid


i lost the game! - and as a consequence,i got the bouquet and the guy (diane's high school friend... sorry i forgot his name) got the garter.

our pic with the couple

“It's a look patients get in their eyes. There is a scent, a smell of death; some kind of 6th sense and when the great beyond is headed for you, you feel it coming.

Dr. Meredith Grey

after the heat

>hay salamat nawalan na ko ng lagnat. thank you mama mary!

natapos ko na rin yung video hehe. ready na ko ipakita kay papsi ang produkto ng aking pagkakasakit. hehe.

oops, hindi pa pala ko nakakagawa ng message ko.

hay im just so glad im getting well.


> ngayon nga pala yung stag party ng aking bestfriend. hay. sana maging ok naman at mag enjoy talaga sila. hirap lang na naging girl ako. hindi tuloy ako pwedeng sumama sa kanila. pero ok lang dahil kung sa beerhouse lang naman sila pupunta mamyang gabi, hindi din naman ako makakarelate at lalong hindi ako mag eenjoy. hahaha

hindi rin naman sila maliligayahan kung ako ang lalabas sa cake. tsaka hindi ako magkakasya dun in the first place.

feeling cold though in heat

> yesterday i went home. hindi ko na kaya. may sakit na nga talaga ko. pharyngitis lang naman sana (hindi na naghhypertrophy yung tonsils ko napagod na ata. hehehe). last december pa to actually at nagmatigas akong hindi uminom ng antibiotics. dinaan ko lang sa hexetidine. umokey naman until last monday, ayun na. i wasnt feeling well already. wala naman akong ubo at sipon until now.

> tuesday i became feverish so i decided to buy antibiotics na. sinilip ko sa salamin ang aking pharynx and to my surprise, puro exudates ang nakita ko. it was not the petechial type. its worse than that. para talagang may 2 pillars ng exudates sa magkabilang gilid ng oropharynx ko. at to worsen things up, andami pang mga ulcers hanggang pharyngeal walls. yun na ata ang 'pinaka' sa lahat ng infection sa lalamunan na nakita ko.

> so there i was. hindi makakain. puro soup lang ang kaya kong i-swallow kaya naman hinang hina ako. the following day was immunization day at my health center. at the middle of my pagbabakuna, umatake ang hyperacidity ko (secondary to decreased food intake, vitamin c and paracetamol). kaya ayun. nagpaalam na ko ng maaga.

> sayang hindi ko naipakita kay doc nani ang napaganda kong pharynx na pang medical archives ang dating.

> today, absent ako. buti na lang naglilipat kami ng health center at hindi na talaga ako pinapasok. i still have fever na umaabot pa din ng kwarenta kahit naka antibiotics na.

> hmp. papalitan ko na nga yung antibiotic ko.

> wrong timing talaga. pupunta pa naman kami ni madel sa batangas this weekend. pano ko makakasama nyan?

> sana bukas ok na ko.


waaah si dabsy nag uwi pa ng dounuts at kisses! kainis!

internship et cetera

yesterday, i went to USTH to find out what happened to my application there. well, good news is that, my name was posted for interview. bad news was, the interview took place last september 27. i talked to the secretary hoping to get another chance for an interview but sad to say, the doctors already decided not to accept interns for november. hay sayang. it will be a good opportunity pa naman to know my paternal roots. my relatives from my father's side really intrigues me. my dad didn't have the chance to know them because my paternal grandfather died when my dad was only 5 years old and he grew up in my lola's hometown.

when we were driving home from the grad ball, dabs was telling us she remember lola told her once that they were lolo's second family. my mom knew someone who has our surname but only too late that he died before she had the chance to introduce him to my dad. but my mom swears that the person has some resemblance of my dad. i wonder if its also true what my intern in jose reyes (and graduate of UST) told me that i look like the person he knew in UST bearing also the same surname. are those people really connected to us? do we have the same roots? im hoping to find that out in the near future or at least before my dad dies. i may have lost the chance but i'll sure find another way.

graduation ball

last october 17 was my graduation ball held at the garden ballroom of edsa shagrila hotel. Papsi was my escort. here are some of the picslast october 17 was my graduation ball held at the garden ballroom of edsa shagrila hotel. Papsi was my escort. here are some of the pics:

paps and me

my prime- mates

at the grand stairs

Friends, meet my new pamangkin. he's John Mathew

Ca's Birthday Party

words that healed me

In the darkest time of a person’s life, true friends always come to the rescue. You may not see them often but when you need them, they won’t fail you. They will be there… in any way possible.

There were a few sms I was keeping for sometime now. they were the messages of my friends that I got after they learned about the break up. Their words really got in to me that I found myself crying while reading them. I felt so loved. the comfort of knowing that they are there gave me that certain “push” to keep going.

I still wanted to keep those messages even now that I have replaced my sim card with a new one. that’s why I decided to post them here.

“…dat’s so sad to hear and it seems unfair, I wish I cud be der for you, I guess u deserve someone better, matigas din kase ulo mo hehe… smile best! Remember you are a good catch okie? I’ll always be here best… always”

“Bud, don’t blame yourself, tulad ng sinabi ko, there are things beyond our control.. They happen because they are meant to happen exactly this time with you and with him... maybe may fault kayong dalawa pero kahit anong gawin natin to hold things, when they are not for us, they will pass…”

Dryn and Elaine, my two angels, maraming salamat.

to my two best friends who were my sounding board even from the start, Papsi and Tina, Salamat.

missing my chamber

I finally came home after staying in manila for three weeks. My last stint as an outside rotator in clerkship is over. what a relief. Hay nakahinga na ko ng maluwag. Natapos na din ang paghihirap ko sa jose reyes. Hehehe.

i was hoping that when I get home, i can shut my self inside my room and tuck myself in my own bed. But then, to my disappointment, ate was there with her family. They would be staying there until the bathroom in their room is finished. I hate it.

i’m a person who needs time alone. I need a place where I can shut myself out of the world and have some quiet time alone. Coz everyday, i meet different people. In the hospital, I take care of patients, know where they hurt, and help them as much as I can. If im not with patients, I’m with my co- clerks. I share the lounge with them. I sleep, eat, and get toxic with them. when I went to manila, I shared room with papsi or Elaine coz I didn’t get my own place to cut down expenses. Somehow it feels I get tired just by being surrounded by people.

My room is my resting place. That’s where I recharge after my busy day and where I think of my plans. My room is an extension of myself. It gives me peace just by being there. And now that I’m home, I can’t have it like the way I used to. Instead, im staying with my parents room. Para akong border sa sarili kong bahay nito. Hay kainis talaga. Hmm…

Now I’m thinking, sana I have my own place already. Di bale, two more months and im out of here. I’ll make sure I’ll stay in manila for internship. And then I’ll have my own nook. My own sanctuary hehehe.

To papsi and Elaine, thank you for taking me in. I’m thankful to have friends like you. I hope in one way or another I was able to make you happy during my stay in your places. J