coffee break

im in love with nescafe's hazelnut coffee with ice. mmm... and i love drinking it in my tall frosted glass with a large pink P. hehe.
my friends know that i seldom drink hot coffee coz anything "hot" makes me feel sleepy hehe.
i took this photo while talking on the fone. hehe






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comfort zone

ewan ko ba kung ano nangyayari sa kin. there's something in my gut wanting to be heard. siguro rin i kept on fighting the urge to do it kaya ganito. well what do you think i am talking about? i'm gonna tell you what it is. i want something extraordinary. i want to get out of my comfort zone. i want to feel the action, the thrill, and the adventure of being alive! living a life of comfort sometimes makes me feel lost in realizing the purpose of my existence, the mere meaning of why i am here. i am free but at times i do not feel free. there' s something there waiting for me. i knew it. i can feel it. waiting...






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time out

pwede bang time first muna? time first sa kakaisip at kakaplano? time first sa kaba at tensyon? i just want a break. haaay. isa pa pala, pwede bang time first muna sa pag iisa?





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q and a with cuz

late last night, i asked him this:

what do you do when you feel lifeless, worthless and uninspired?

he answered me,

set a new goal and this time, hit it hard

bingo.

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a prayer

Lord, please lend your shoulder when it seems i have no one

please lend me your ears when no one seems to listen

please be at my side when no one seems to care

remind me O Lord how blessed i am when i feel worthless

remind me that there's something to look forward to when i get hopeless

and remind me that i am not alone when i feel helpless.

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my first try

im trying to do things on photoshop for the very first time and this is my first work of art. it's simple but im proud of it. i just realized, learning photoshop is like learning a new language. hirap talaga sa umpisa. this took me 4 hours to finish.







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she took my breath away

it's the first time i heard her sing and i must say, i was swept away.
voice is perfect. lyrics is perfect. two thumbs up for Sara Bareilles.














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what love asks

amidst all the noise

and the thoughts running in your head,

listen with your heart



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crossing my fingers

my week consists of studying andrew's then thinking, re- evaluating, and planning my next step. pedia or derma? hmmm. i still want to try on both. and freaking out to get the cash i need to meet the uber expensive application gimmicks of derma. i'm shelling out thousands of cash from my own pocket for those exams. ouch!

im dying to get into residency. i never planned to stay long in moonlighting. it's not that i don't enjoy earning money but time is more of my concern. time is precious for me. also, i wanted the perks that goes with residency like living in the metro (sorry mom) and hopefully hopefully getting a car (crossing my fingers). i like the idea of living alone. nobody knows how proud i feel whenever i go to the grocery alone buying stuffs for my apartment. hay. i really love being independent.

i was hoping to post a picture of ponds' latest facial foam with salysilic acid. i saw its advertisement while watching my favorite soap (tayong dalawa). i made a mental note to buy one when i pass by watson's but had second thoughts when i remembered i recently bought the new nivea deep pore cleanser which i haven't used yet.

i added links here to the blogs that i am addicted to. i don't know personally the owners of those blogs but sure know them since almost all of them are celebrities and one is a sister of my colleague. the common interests we share made me a follower. the things they post from architecture, clothes, accessories, food, landscapes, places and other beautiful things plus the inspiring thoughts they write makes me dream more, hope more, aspire more and yes, sometimes drool. someday someday i will land in one of those lifestyle shows and they will feature my house, farm, business establishment, or luxury vacation house. hehe

there's this song from boyz II men that was playing in my head since yesterday. sort of last song syndrome. im pretty lucky i got the song in my iTunes. the title is water runs dry. i really love it. arrangement was nice. although the lyrics is a little sad and i can't relate to it as of pres time. i guess it's the voice quality and harmony that makes it really sounds good. the voice of boyz II men is timeless! i also love the new buble's song haven't met you yet. can't help but replay it 10x before i move on to the next track. hehe.

this camera i like. hmmm kelan kaya ako magkakroon ng ganito?

the , canon g11









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break free

a few weeks back, i made an important decision. i scrapped off the rule i made about friendship and love. no more rules. i'm a free girl now.

this is what maturity can do. hay. but i feel happy with it. learning and re- learning things. trying something new. living life to the fullest.

well i guess, i can say this now- i will be happy to end up with a friend... but if it doesn't happen then at least i gave it a chance.




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again

they say 'when it rains, it pours.'

again, why does it have to me?




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miss independent

yezzz. panalo ang title ng entry na ito. naalala ko since nung bata pa ako, pag tinatanong ako kung ano gusto ko maging, ang sinasagot ko ay 'to become independent.' somehow ngayon nangyayari na yun. hindi man 'totally' independent pero at least sa maraming bagay ako na mismo nagdedesisyon para sa sarili ko.

kanina, pumunta ako ng mall. kahapon ko pa balak pumunta dun. gusto ko sana lumabas at mag- enjoy bago ako magmongha ulit. kailangan na kase mag aral para sa exam.

and so kanina andun ako sa mall mag- isa. nanood ng G.I. Joe at nag window shopping. naghahanap ng makakainan. wala naman akong nakitang resto na may 'acquired taste' akong ma- eexperince. kaya ending e sa bahay kumain.

habang naglalakad sa mall, naisip ko pa din yung mga realization ko kagabi tungkol sa madaming bagay sa buhay ko. lalo na ang love life kong hindi na ulit nag- bloom ng bonggang bongga simula nung nagbreak kami ni 'artagnan' happy ako at nangyari ang realization na yun. at least ngayon hindi na ko magtataka/ magtatanong kung bakit hanggang ngayon mag-isa pa din ako. anyway, kaya nga ako andun sa mall kanina para ilabas ang sarili ko at gumawa ng mga bagay- bagay na ako lang. i was amused to look at the expression of people i come across with. nakakatuwang isipin na wala sa kanilang nakakakilala sa akin. gusto ko ipaalala sa sarili ko na may advantage din ang pag- iisa. na may sense of fulfillment din naman kahit mag- isa.

i wanted to celebrate my freedom while i can. i just want to live for this moment and not to think what tomorrow may bring.

well, i got what i want today coz i had fun.





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one true love

konti na lang at maniniwala na ako na ang para sa akin ay hindi ko matatagpuan sa lugar na ito.
or... hindi NYA ako matatagpuan dito.

hay...

- buntong hininga ng isang bigo ngunit umaasa pa din na isang araw ay matatagpuan din ang batang paslit na ito.




flashback....

HELMET

akala ko sya na pero pag lingon ko, bigla akong nauntog. nasira ang helmet na nakasuot na pala sa ulo ko. akala ko matibay. magpapasalamat ba ako sa isang panaginip na hindi pa man nakapagsisimula ay natapos na agad?

oo.

mas maganda na ito kaysa magising kung kailan nasa kalagitnaan na ng isang magandang panaginip. paniguradong mas masakit 'yon.

hindi na siguro mabubuo ulit ang helmet...

tapos na ang kabanatang ito.

tomorrow, it's time to move on.





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a reminder

just got this from my friend's blog whom she got from another friend's blog.
i just want to repost it here so i'll alwas be reminded.

Principles of Success:

1. Wherever you are, be there. - the power of FOCUS
2. Whatever you are looking for, you will find it. - the power of PERSPECTIVE
3. If you think you can, you can. If you think you can't, you can't. - the power of CONFIDENCE
4. Whatever you work on, you become. - the power of FORMATION
5. Whoever you admire, you copy. - the power of MENTORSHIP

im gonna start reviewing SERIOUSLY this week. reading this will surely help.

go go go!!!


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of love and friendship

since the beginning i have always chosen friendship over love. i didn't have regrets in doing it coz i believe i make the right choice every time. i believe, in friendship i can have that someone forever. in friendship no hearts could be hurt.

and now, those beliefs are challenged again. i am bothered coz this is one of those few times i ask my self, is it now time to reconsider? is it now the time to choose love over friendship?

confusion sets in.

how much time do i have left to think this over? how long will it take before you arrive?

for the longest time i have been the keeper of friendship. of peace. i have stood still. my heart was kept strong with the years of many challenges it faced and conquered. i have always won.

if i choose love over friendship, will it mean failure on my part?

how strong is my heart? how deep is your love?

if i choose you, can you promise forever? will you not make me realize tomorrow that i made the wrong decision of choosing love over friendship?

think. ponder. reflect.

a choice has to be made sooner or later.


love or friendship?


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