DNR DNI

my patient died just as i was about to leave the hospital. he's a 26 year old male who has community acquired pneumonia- high risk. upon x- ray, his lungs showed lobar pneumonia, right middle and lower lobes. i took care of him for 4 days and i've been pretty close with him and his wife. it was pretty disappointing that we were not able to save his life... sayang talaga sya. he's young, laging smiling face kahit hirap na huminga. this morning, he went to arrest and was luckily revived. nakakiyak kanina habang inaambubag ko sya. kinakausap sya ng nanay nya. sinasabi sa kanya na humingi sya ng tawad sa dyos... na wag syang mag- alala dahil hindi nya papabayaan yung anak nya (he has a 1 year old kid)... na mahal na mahal sya ng nanay nya... i wanted to cry with her then. but i knew that i was not suppose to do that... i was asking myself then, how do you shut yourself from all those anguish and sorrow happening right before your eyes. how do we deny ourselves of being HUMAN?


(DNR- do not resuscitate DNI- do not intubate )