missing my chamber

I finally came home after staying in manila for three weeks. My last stint as an outside rotator in clerkship is over. what a relief. Hay nakahinga na ko ng maluwag. Natapos na din ang paghihirap ko sa jose reyes. Hehehe.

i was hoping that when I get home, i can shut my self inside my room and tuck myself in my own bed. But then, to my disappointment, ate was there with her family. They would be staying there until the bathroom in their room is finished. I hate it.

i’m a person who needs time alone. I need a place where I can shut myself out of the world and have some quiet time alone. Coz everyday, i meet different people. In the hospital, I take care of patients, know where they hurt, and help them as much as I can. If im not with patients, I’m with my co- clerks. I share the lounge with them. I sleep, eat, and get toxic with them. when I went to manila, I shared room with papsi or Elaine coz I didn’t get my own place to cut down expenses. Somehow it feels I get tired just by being surrounded by people.

My room is my resting place. That’s where I recharge after my busy day and where I think of my plans. My room is an extension of myself. It gives me peace just by being there. And now that I’m home, I can’t have it like the way I used to. Instead, im staying with my parents room. Para akong border sa sarili kong bahay nito. Hay kainis talaga. Hmm…

Now I’m thinking, sana I have my own place already. Di bale, two more months and im out of here. I’ll make sure I’ll stay in manila for internship. And then I’ll have my own nook. My own sanctuary hehehe.

To papsi and Elaine, thank you for taking me in. I’m thankful to have friends like you. I hope in one way or another I was able to make you happy during my stay in your places. J