go the distance

been listening to this song yesterday. i realized i have gone weary fighting my battle... well, this song did made help. it inspired me again.

...one of my favorite

I have often dreamed of a far off place,
Where a heros welcome would be waiting for me.
Where the crowds would cheer, when they see my face,
And a voice keeps saying this is where I'm meant to be

I'll be there someday, I can go the distance.
I will find my way if I can be strong.
I know every mile would be worth my while,
When I go the distance, I'll be right where I belong.

Down an unknown road to embrace my fate,
Though that road may wander, it will lead me to you.
And a thousand years would be worth the wait.
It might take a lifetime but somehow I'll see it through

And I won't look back, I can go the distance,
And I'll stay on track, no I won't accept defeat,
It's an uphill slope,
But I won't loose hope, 'till I go the distance
And my journey is complete, oh yeah.

But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part,
For a heros strength is measured by his heart, ohh...

Like a shooting star, I will go the distance,
I will search the world, I will face it's harms,
I don't care how far, I can go the distance,
'Till I find my heros welcome waiting in your arms.

I will search the world, I will face its harms
'Till I find my heros welcome waiting in your arms.

lib on a friday

here in my school's internet station. i decided to check my mail and post something for my blog before i go to the library. yeah... going to the library on a friday seems too bad ... pathetic and awful. well, that's my new MOA for this prelim coz i noticed my weekend is not enough to compensate for all the readings that i should make.

kanina, i had my practical exam on PD. oh boy... hmm... what can i say... did a lot of bloopers there. wala na me magawa than to laugh about it. i hope the proctor didn't get irritated with me especially with the way i conversed with him. i'll share to you one of my 'BINGO' moments. here it goes...

doc: how do you check the palpatory blood pressure
me: (explaining as best as i could)we put the cuff first, then palpate the radial artery. inflate the cuff and release slowly until the first sound is heard
doc: ulitin mo nga ulit doktora
me getting toxic repeated again what i have said without noticing my mistake.
MAN! my groupmate (who acted as my patient) was smiling at me while i look at him, still unknowing what wrong i have said.
doc: do you auscultate the radial artery? how come you have heard the beat?
well that's when i laughed at myself and said 'oo nga pala!!! ang toxic!' nakakahiya pero buti na lang mabait din ung doctor, he let me correct my statement.

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got my patho platings result. really did bad on that one.  have to do double time on that subject.

had platings on pharma too. got perfect on that one. :) something to thank for, be happy about and be inspired of.
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my knight and i will be another month older tommorow. so thankful that after all the trials that we've been through, we have managed to keep it this far. :)

to my knight, as i have sad before, my mind may be busy on a lot of things but my heart will do no other but loving you.

rainy days and mondays

got home early today. thanks to gloria. hehe. buti na lang, coz i wasn't able to prepare for the conference.

i feel sad. it seems my chest feels so heavy. can't think of any underlying cause for that... i'm just so thankful that i got home early and had time to rest. i just finished pulling out my 'props' in my room. :) prelim's over. but as i've said, toxicity ain't over yet.

reason for the title.. those are two things i don't like

TOXIC

i have read my last entry and i've seen how poor i have written.... hehe... ganun na pala ko ka- toxic. well, i just finished my 1st prelims but chasing time aint over yet. still got a plating and report tomorrow. jeez, i haven't done anything yet.

chasing time

whew! it's really hard to chase time and it seems my running isn't fast enough.

in a week, i regularly battle 4 unit exams (called platings- it was 'shifting' when i wus in 1st year. don't know why they call it as such). my schedule is patho on mondays, micro on tuesdays and wednesdays(they give four lectures a week so two that gives two units and yeah, two platings), and pharma every friday. and that's every week, with no fail, of my 1st sem life. plus i have quizzes for every subjects. some even give before and after the lecture (and i get pissed off because its 'define the following' and it has to be by the book. in short the only way to pass is to memorize- just what i hate most).

next week, i'll have five unit exams. omni die. that means a whole week without lunch (unit exams are given at 12 noon so as not to affect the time alloted for lectures). MAN!

i saw my plating grade for patho yesterday. got flunked :( but it's really not so low. pero kahit na, it's still an indication that i need to catch up on that subject. it seems i've been giving most of my effort on pharma so i tend to cram on the others. well pharma's really something to give special attention to. it seems that subject was designed for the students to fail it. they don't even discard the lowest plating that a student got in a semester (like microbio and patho).

something that worries me is my attitude during fridays.it's our last subject and it's after our plating on pharma. yesterday, we had a video quiz and i flunked, a usual quiz for the week's topic, which i flunked again, and a drawing quiz, which i pray i didn't flunk.

i wus then answering the second quiz when my mind got blank. it seems it's refusing my orders to think and answer the questions. i didn't even remember what the instruction was for the last part. the paper is almost blank when i passed it. siguro, i'll also study patho lab on weekends. and i hope what happened yesterday won't happen again.

1st prelims is only a week from now and i'm stuck here in front of the computer doing our transparency. our group will give an orientation regarding our pharma experiment on monday. damn, i still have to type our thesis proposals. got to run!

just remember, i miss seeing my knight every friday. something that i don't anymore have the luxury of doing... just hang on there. two more weeks. :)

mr. suave

i just remember one class I had this week. It was surgery and the doctor who lectured looks like Erap. Not exaggerating what so ever, but he really looks like Erap. Pati bigote. what’s really funny about him though is his ringtone. I was in the middle of reading his transparency (had a hard time doing that coz it was handwritten…with his own handwriting. MAN! It was really bad. I’m thankful that they didn’t photocopy those for handouts), when his phone played MR. SUAVE instrumental. The class bursted out laughing. Buti na lang he didn’t do the dance step before answering it. Or else I’ll be running out of the room to tell the guard that some psychotic guy went to our class and pretended to be our lecturer. 

my crying is over

woke up late today. i realized how tired my body was. i think i had too much for this week. had too much mental and emotional stuffs to bear. i'm happy that it ended well... at least now i have gained enough strength to face what lies ahead.