bakit ganun ang mga forwarded messages?

got this from a friend. i wus smiling the whole time i was reading it. it amazes me how people are connected to each other. how people are meant to feel the pain, anxiety, and hope of another person that they don't even know... that a certain experince is meant to produce one common emotion regardless of who you are or where you're from... amazing...

Yehey! Wala na kami. Wala na akong aalalahanin, wala na akong iisipin...
Pero hirap akong matulog sa gabi dahil bumabalik
yung mga alaala noong magkasama kami.
Naiisip ko kung paano niya hawakan yung kamay ko,
yung tipong nagsasabing hindi niya ako iiwanan.
Kung pa'no niya ko yakapin, yung nagsasabing lagi niya akong poprotektahan.
At kung pa'no niya ako halikan, yung nagsasabing mahal na mahal nya ako.

Yehey! Wala na kami. Hindi na ako iiyak pa...
Pero kapag gabi nagagawa ko pa ring umiyak, dahil nami-miss ko siya.
Nami-miss ko yung mga ngiti niyang nakakaloko, mga jokes niyang corny,
mga tingin niyang nakakatunaw, tawa niyang nakakabaliw,
pangungulit niya sa akin at kung anu-ano pang
kapraningan na ginagawa niya.
Nami-miss ko yun...

Yehey! Wala na kami.
Wala na akong tatawagan, hindi na ako magte-text sa kanya,
at makakaipon na ako ng pera para sa sarili ko.
Pero sa tuwing hawak ko ang cell phone ko,
lagi kong hinahanap ang pangalan niya.
Lagi akong nate-tempt na magtext sa kanya, o di naman kaya, tumawag.
Nangangati lagi ang darili ko na pindutin ang "Write Message"
i-type ang message ko,
i-scroll yung button para makita ko yung number niya,
at tapos ipe-press ko yung "Send".
O kaya naman, i-scroll ko yung button para mahanap yung name niya
tapos ipe-press ko yung "Call".
Kahit na alam ko na mauubos na ang load ko
at wala na akong pambili ng credit (dahil kabibigay lang ng nanay ko).
Kahit na alam kong hindi naman sya magre-reply at hinding-hindi nya ako tatawagan.
At kahit kailan hindi na nya gagawin pang magparamdam.

Yehey! Wala na kami.
Magkakaroon na ako ng time para sa sarili ko, sa pamilya ko at sa barkada ko.
Pero sa tuwing lalabas ako ng bahay, kasama man ang pamilya o barkada ko,
siya lagi ang naaalala ko, na sana, kasama ko siya ngayon.
Magkahawak kamay na namamasyal, naglolokohan, nagkukulitan,
at nagtatawanan.
Tapos, walang katapusang usapan
kung saan kakain ng lunch, kung sa Jollibee, McDo, KFC, o sa Max's.
Kung pupunta ba sa isang game arcade
para maglaro ng video games o di kaya naman, kung maglalaro ng basketball,
bowling or billiards.
Tapos, i-hahatid niya ako papauwi
sabay nanakawan ng halik habang nasa biyahe.

Yehey! Wala na kami.
Hindi na ako magpupuyat sa kakatutok sa computer,
aabutin ng madaling-araw kaka-chat sa kanya.
Pero sa tuwing may ise-search ako sa Internet,
bubuksan ko ang Yahoo Messenger, MSN Messenger, ICQ, at MIRC
dahil baka sakaling dumating siya.
Makausap ko man lang, makikipagkulitan uli
at baka sakaling magkaliwanagan kami at maibalik ang dating "kami".

Yehey! Wala na kami. Wala na akong boyfriend, pwede na akong tumingin sa iba
at tumanggap ng manliligaw.
Pero sabi ko sa sarili ko, hindi na ako magmamahal pa uli.
Dahil siya lang ang mahal ko.
Siya lang ang nakaka-kumpleto sa araw ko,
siya lang yung inspirasyon ko sa mga bagay-bagay.
Siya lang yung nakakaintindi sa akin kapag may problema ako.
Siya lang yung nakakapagpatahan sa akin kapag umiiyak ako.
Siya lang ang buhay ko, siya lang, wala ng iba.
Magmamahal din ako, pero hindi muna ngayon,
hindi muna...

me

i'm sorry if saying how i feel now would make you angry/ irritated or whatever you call it. but this is me. they say women are hard to understand... in that part i do believe in that.( i do not have any intention for that matter to speak for every woman in this world.)

i am fickle minded... but being fickle minded doesn't mean to say what i'm saying are lies. they are my true feelings. for that certain point in time that i've said them, they are true...

the only lie i made in all of this was something that didn't even came out of my mouth. and yes, i was already punished for that. and i believe i have suffered more than i should.

i'm not perfect. no matter how much i try to be, i can never be a perfect daughter, friend, partner, or student. i have commited a lot of mistakes and i'm sure i'll commit more of them in the future. (i'm sorry, but i believe that is the essence of being a human- to commit mistakes and learn from them). at this point, i admit that it was my big mistake to say NEVER to something that i have no control of...

i have exerted so much effort to move on. i may say that it's progressive but my heart just can't let go.

we have only one life. i don't want to spend mine in waste. i can have all the riches and fame in the world, but those will never be enough to make a person feel complete. they say there's only one way... that is to follow your heart.

one day you will find your greatest love. someone that you will be willing to go against all the odds for that person... that you're willing to exchange anything and everything just to have a moment with her. and when that time comes, you will then understand.

if you're just worrying about me, thank you. don't worry i'll think a million times before i make my final decision and i'll ask GOD for guidance.

exhibit 1: thought for the week

how do you know that you've found the one?

How can i not love you?

i heard this song again...

Cannot Touch, Cannot Hold
Cannot Be Together
Cannot Love, Cannot Kiss
Cannot Have Each Other
Must Be Strong
And We Must Let Go
Cannot Say What Our Hearts Must Know

How Can I Not Love You
What Do I Tell My Heart
When Do I Not Want You Here In My Arms
How Does One Walks Away From All Of The Memories
How Do I Not Miss You When You Are Gone
Cannot Dream
Cannot Share Sweet And Tender Moments
Cannot Feel How We Feel
Must Pretend Its over
Must Be Brave
And We Must Go On
Must Not Say What We've Known All Along

How Can I Not Love You
What Do I Tell My Heart
When Do I Not Want You Here In My Arms
How Does One Walks Away From All Of The Memories
How Do I Not Miss You When You Are Gone
How Can I Not Love You
Must Be Brave
And We Must Be Strong
Cannot Say What We've Known All Along


How Can I Not Love You
What Do I Tell My Heart
When Do I Not Want You Here In My Arms
How Does One Waltz Away From All Of The Memories
How Do I Not Miss You When You Are Gone
How Can I Not Love You When You Are Gone

...now my heart is in pieces