time

when you are a doctor, time is always a problem.
there were holidays that you cannot attend to, birthdays you failed to remember. monthsaries, anniversaries, get together parties... countless events that you failed to attend because you have to be in the hospital to save lives.
however, time in the hospital has always been fast. 7 days in a week is shorten down to 3- pre-duty, duty, and from duty. a cycle that is never meant to be broken. coz once you did, you will be in the hospital forever- serving perpetual duty.
the sad part of it is, no one who is not in the realm of the medical practice understood the cycle. and this misunderstanding has caused a lot of fights and bickering between couples or even friends.
unfair. yes it is. coz in our part, we were also robbed off that precious time we want to spend on  sleeping, eating more, shopping, traveling, spend time with family and friends or someone special. im wondering, has anyone, especially those who left us or fought with us thought about that?
and now, ive had a break going through the cycle. its been 8 months since i left.
looking back, i had a lot of plans on how to spend all these time that i have now. i have waited for this. and yet i cant do what i have planned.
coz i may have all the time now... but i have no one to spend it with.