when our eyes met again

i'm from- duty today. since it's sunday, i decided to go home to be with my family. as i was riding the fx, i thought of the scene that happened between me and the one i called my lover in one of my posts here.

i was the floater yesterday and my job is actually to do all the extra jobs outside the D.R. follow- up lab results, release blood for the patients admitted in the D.R., accompany patients to the xray or e.r. trauma in case of a referral, help the ward intern to do referrals, get food at the dietary, buy things for co-interns, residents, and clerk at the D.R. in short aliping sagiguilid.

so there i was walking in the hallways of the ground floor when our paths crossed. i was in a hurry and so was he. our eyes met. i was caught off-guard. i didn't know if im going to smile or greet him. i just stared. i guess he was caught off guard too. i saw the hesitation in his face.

he just stared at me too.

later, i learned that he was the e.r. officer of the day. our duty was getting really toxic. we were already running out of stechers. my friend who was at the I.E. (E.R.) asked me to talk to the ERO to limit patients which i eventually did after a series of deep breathing exercises.

it was casual... and meant nothing.


... back to the fx scene. as i reminisce what happened to me and that guy, i realized that i have something to thank him for. the liplocking thing was the confirmation of my freedom from the past. it was then that i realized that i am already (and truly) ok.

i know he didn't squeal our secret. kuya, being unaware of it, is enough proof for that. knowing him and his boastful, arrogant attitude, i am touched by what he did. maybe it's his way of saying that he truly appreciated the conversation we had at their quarters.

i guess the bottom line is, i felt ashamed of treating him as invincible. after all, he was nice to me din pala.