first rotation sucks

i am so pissed off with dcfm. sobra silang mag- power tripping!!! at malas mo pa pag babae ka. syempre, ang mga single blessedness pabor sa mga guys. those bitches... hay nako. mabuti na lang, papa material yung ka- duty ko. dahil sa kanya naabswelto kami sa mga "kasalanan" daw namin. ewan ko ba, ginagawa mo naman ang tungkulin mo, demerit pa din inaabot mo. its so UNFAIR!!! hay. mabuti na lang mabait yung mga kassama naming mga regulars. sila tga- sabi ng "ok lang yan, wag ka masyadong magpaapekto." hay nako, wish ko lang paggising ko october 2007 na.

CLERKSHIP: ang drama sa likod ng pangarap

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CLERK NA KO!!!!

yehey! sa wakas, pagkatapos ng isang buwan na exams, eto na ang resulta ng mahigit tatlong taon kong paghihirap sa institute of medicine. simula sa october 1, hospital na ang magiging classroom ko, conference na ang magiging lecture ko at pasyente na ang magiging teacher ko.

pasensya na wala na ko maisip. parang lumulutang pa din ako. :)

salamat sa inyong lahat. salamat sa Our Lady of Mt. Carmel.

thank you din, pedia for passing me.

the beginning of super toxic weeks

im reviewing for the final exams for next week. i just thought of surfing the net to find out if my cousin passed the physician's licensure exam which just ended this monday. i really hope she passed even if all the eyes will be on me afterwards. whether she made it or not, the pressure will still be on me. expected na yun e. ganun yata talaga pag may nauuna sayo. either they expect you follow their footsteps or do better than they did.

i'm gonna live in a dorm again. i should have moved last thursday but our laundry woman didn't work for a week now. my mom got a reliever just yesterday so my uniforms wouldnt be ready until this afternoon. i'll be moving tomorrow morning. i guess i'll just hail a cab to get my things just like a city girl in the movies hehehe.. only my mom's gonna be paying for the rent and my allowance. hay. i wish i my finals will turn out well so that i can have my clerkship this october.

(okey, i've just seen the list of board passers from PRC. my cousin didn't make it =(... hmmm..)

wish me luck. and pray for me.


and paps, hindi ka nag- iisa.

pedia, please pass me too.

latest addiction

stars are blind
i didn't know paris hilton can sing

and so here it goes...

after a loooong time, im blogging again. i know i owe a LOT of kwento to all of you guys. sorry. ive been super busy since school started. well, ive been doing ok. i feel good that midterms almost over. i can now watch t.v. and sleep more than the usual '2- 3 hour- sometimes- none'. school will be over by september and i am really really nervious and that's not because of clerkship but because of the things i have to catch up just to get to it. oh well, thats lot of superlatives already.

jeezz, i miss everbody. paps and tina, how are you doing? i havent seen you guyz for a long time now. i hope we can go out on the sem break. just the three of us.

the 'kwento' is, dryn and i went out a couple of times. uhmm...just to clarify, it's not like were 'dating'. my baby and i are still very much together. (oi, defensive. hahaha. landi!)

dryn got a car already. he's scared to drive alone so he's been inviting friends to have joy rides with him. well, the first time we went out with his car was when he fetched me after my night duty in obstetrics which was uh a couple of months ago(halata naman puyat sa pic, di ba?). it was a day of a lot of FIRSTS. we had breakfast in chocolate kiss (in bahay ng alumni) and drove around UP Diliman. it was my first time to eat there and it was his first time to drive around the campus. we had a pretty serious talk over breakfast. im happy he's moved on. he's dating somebody and as i see it, he's serious about the girl. i haven't met the girl yet. we were supposed to have a double date at imax but everybody got a little busy and dryn is in germany for a couple of weeks. he drove me home afterwards (first time he drove to bulacan) and we had lunch there.

the second time was in eastwood. wala lang. naisipan lang naming lumabas dahil wala kaming ganang mag- aral. nakakatuwa lang isipin na nagiging comfortable na kaming pag- usapan yung mga relationships namin. that's what weve been talking about most of the time while strolling the patios of eastwood.

ayun. pagkatapos nun, mongha na naman ako. i was tied with my books coz i have to prepare for midterms.

how about you guys? how have you been doing?

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anong bago sa friendster?

i always get the shock of my life whenever i visit friendster. hay naku, kung meron mang pinakamagandang source ng personalized chismis, friendster na yun. katulad ngayon, na- shock ako ng makita ko yung dalawang classmates ko nung high school na nagkatuluyan at may baby na. syet. hindi talaga ko makapaniwala. kelan pa naging sila? hah. feeling ko im so left out. para kong nasa bundok na walang kaalam alam sa mga nangyayari sa lupa. hay.


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latest addiction

hoyyy! nanonood ba kayo ng wedding? hindi yung sa simbahan ha. ang ibig kong sabihin yung koreanovela sa channel 2 pag saturday at sunday ng tanghali. hay grabe. kumpleto linggo ko pag napapanood ko yun. ganda talaga. feeling ko minsan nakaka- relate ako sa love story nila. gusto ko si xena kase napaka- kikay nya at mahilig sa pink. at si darren din ang type kong guy. hay. nakaka- inlove talaga yung love stroy ng dalawang 'to. PRAMIS!

lost in track... trying to get back (and hoping its not yet too late)

this semester is taking especially hard. i dont know if im the only one who feels tired and sleepy all the time. as in hindi na ko makapag- aral. it got to the point that i cried because i feared i failed one stupid prelim that probably most of my classmates had a perfect score.

right now, im getting back to the student i was last semester. this is my first day of my new study schedule. sana tuluy- tuloy na to..




by the way, milord, you look good in v- neck. :)

hi, im back!

i feel so drained... it's the sixth day of my prelim.hay. hindi ko alam kung maayos yung mga sagot ko kanina sa gyne. pagod na pagod na talaga ko. hmm... konti na lang. sige pa konting tiis pa. tatlong bwan na lang naman matatapos na ang paghihirap na ito.... at mag- uumpisa na ang panibagong mas mahirap na paghihirap... hay... pero at least wala na ko sa IM nun... gradweyt na sa buhay classroom...

last saturday, i watched da vinci code ... finally nakanuod na rin ako. nakakalungkot lang na hindi ako sa gateway nakanood as what was originaly planned. kase naman hanggang 5 pa yung exam ko at talgang pagod na ko.

hmmm.. sabi ko nga madami na kong kwento. pero sorry. wala pa ko talaga sa mood. ayaw na ng utak kong mag- isip... huminto na ata... hehehe... antok na antok na kasi ako e. naku, bukas pala may report pa ko sa applied nutrition... at hindi pa nga pala tapos ang first prelim. meron pa akong mga exam na na-moved for this week. i still have applied nutrition (exam) on thurs and community and family med on friday... which reminds me... may report pa pala ako ng surgery preceptorial class sa friday. hay, buhay third year talaga. toxic !

girl's instinct

it's one of those times when you want to say something but you just can't... it's hard to say yes when deep inside you don't really want to say it.

i have a bad feeling about my baby living in las pinas for a year. he was hired by her sister, who is fortunately the principal of a private school there, to teach. it's not that i will miss him coz i always do. whether he's in manila or in any other place, its the same thing. i still wont be able to see him as often. but why do i have this gut feel that something not good is bound to happen while he's there? ... i dont know. when he asked me to help him decide about it, i told him that if it will help him a lot with his savings, then do so. in the end my trust in him prevails. and as for me, watchful waiting begins until the future unveils itself. whatever is bound to happen, it will... but still i wish my instincts are wrong this time.

last stretch in the academe is the toughest

• first prelims starts on may 29
• two sugery subspecialties in a week
• duty at the OB- GYN OPD on monday and night duty on friday
• report on monday for gyne
• do research in community and family med
• study for the upcoming prelims in the midst of the busy sked and with a very tired body
• quiz quiz quiz. you dont know when you'll get em
• battling 22 subjects every week
• CPC.... need i say more
• clinical ward... cute ng adviser ko. hehehe. type!

well that's what a normal week's composed of. hmmm... nothing really interesting except for a few medical terms i learned yesterday in pedia hematology class.

Hickeys and purpura subpleasure are the medical term for love bites or 'chikinini'

may pasok na ulit

• hmm... nasayang na namang oras. pedia ko ngayon, 7:00- 11:00. nag- lecture lang yung doctor ng 1 hour. kaya eto ko ngayon.
  
• i'm not feeling good today. i don't know why...

baby on the way, my latest addiction , and preparing for school

Yes, I admit that I have been ammenorrheic for the past three months but NO, im not pregnant. there are a lot of probable causes but im one hundred and one percent sure a fetus in my womb did not cause it. Actually, its my friend, ate Noreen who’s gonna have another baby. I remember when we were both praying she wont get pregnant again- not at least before graduation- so she wont have a (very) hard time in her studies. One time when she thought that she was, we quickly went to the hospital lab and asked for a free pregnancy kit. We did the test in the comfort room and I remember some of her pee spilled in my notebook. Gross! Hahaha. Though the test was invalid, maybe due to the busted pregnancy kit or because of our nervousness, it turned out to be negative. She had her period three weeks after we did the test.

when summer vacation came, eto na naman kami... when she texted me she collapsed in the church, we again asked the question which is becoming a hundred million worth already- is she pregnant? this time, her sister, who is an ob-gyn confirmed it. her daughter's gonna have a new sibling.

hmmm... kaya naman pala...He let this happen to us (ate and i wont be classmates this semester because she failed two subjects). another blessing in disguise. of course i'm happy for her coz she will have a less stressful sked but im sure gonna miss our kalokohan and kakulitan. one of those things that i'll terribly miss is that when our feelings are down we'll both wish we're showbiz stars like kris aquino who spend sleepless nights to earn millions and doesnt having to go through the pressures of med school. then we'll both laugh in the end with our silly thoughts.

yes, im an addict- again. ate (my true-blooded sister) got a new phone and whoa! it's got new games in it. 'new' as in hindi lang snakes. may iba na wala yung mga lumang nokia. hehe. and so here i am. thanks to the new game that im so in to- im spending a lot of time playing and beating the top score which is none other than mine coz im the only one playing it since she got her phone. and because im sooo addicted, i even offered we switch phones. hay, now my 'review series' is ruined.

yes, im getting my self ready to be grilled again. it's three days more to go before school starts. i went to the mall a couple of days to go to buy new stuffs for school. notebook, ballpen, highlighter highlighter- a lot of highlighter, envelopes envelopes- a lot of envelopes... jeez i got really tired walking to- and -fro in the national book store to buy the things that i need and LIKE. you see it has to be both- in perfect combination. hehehe i also went to the parlor and have a new haircut. my hair is now shorter. i think i look younger din (i say it's my hair- ala pantene commercial). i also finished doing my own bullet-type review series of ten chapters of harrison. im proud of myself for being able to do them despite the temptation to procrastinate but im also sad that i wasnt able to finish ten more chapters. hey, im tired already. besides, my addiction's eating most of my time now.

oh i'm getting anxious again... about this semester, my new subjects, new doctor- lecturers, new ward work- pedia ward, new set of classmates, hmm... im beginning to be scared huhuhu.

btw ospital ng maynila's gonna open on monday. it's back to toxicity for the clerks of plm too. sabay tayo sa ka- toxic-an. funny when elaine told me it drive them nuts that they dont have a busy sked for the past two weeks ('benign', as they call it). hehehe. i know they've been praying for a time- out but when they got it, ayun, tinatakot naman yung mga sarili nila. hay, praning talaga med students. look what they have done to us!!!!

i remember mom cooked my fav ginatang mais a couple of days too. hehe. im getting so takaw nowadays. i guess papsi and i are now the opposites. he do the dieting while i do all the eating. well, i have to enjoy now. coz next year, i have to fulfill my promise that i'll stop eating red meat and fat as in taba ng baboy- which i also love to chew- at 25 (then cut half on sweets at 30).

tomorrow's gonna be a manaoag day for me. im gonna pray really hard. i remember when our class offered a mass before the finals, we didn't know what we'll write in the petition. we joked that we should write there '...deliver us from all evil like pedia and medicine' hehe. well that's a part of what im gonna pray for.

on sunday will be my last major date with my baby before school. i wonder what's our itinerary. he told me it's gonna be a surprise. i bet its all walk... ala mla walking tours hehehe.

tata for now, everyone. help me pray that im gonna make it this semester.

hay antok pa ko

it's just thursday morning pero marami ng taong naglalakad. syempre, mas marami yung ngatitinda. pero mas konti pa din yung ngayon kesa dati...

buti na lang kahapon konti lang yung nilakad namin. hay. pero pagod pa rin as usual. its the first time jemay attended the libing. hehe. after all these years, ngayon lang. :) happy.

two weeks from now i'll be starting my last (really hope so) semester in the academe. ayoko pa. hindi pa ko ready... hehehe

Random thoughts

1. toxicity barometer on the rise
'umorder ka na ba ng silverman? darating yung sa min ngayon e'
'naku, e di mag- uumpisa ka na magbasa at mag- memorize?

'madali lang ang medicine. matakot ka sa pedia'

- salamat sa mga pananakot. dahil sa inyo nagbabasa na ko ng harrison.

2. masarap maging masaya kung wala kang nasasaktan.. but is that possible na wala ka talagang masasaktan?

3. hay, madami akong gagawin. kelangan pa palang umalis. syet. hanggang anong oras kaya ako mawawala?

4. why does this have to happen to me? why did i have to be at that point in time? sana umatras na lang ako. magalit na ang magalit.

5. tanga mo, marge. naging kumplikado lang ang mga bagay- bagay.

6. trust the future. if it's bound to happen, it will.

back to my old alma mater

i went to my old school last wednesday. best invited me to come coz he's gonna be the guest speaker in the recognition ceremony. naks. tumatanda na kami. dati, kami ang nandoon... nakaupo at nakikinig. ngayon, isa na sa min ang pinakikinggan. late ako dumating kaya hindi ko nakita si dryn. habang hinihintay ko syang mag- speech, naglibot muna ako. aba, ang dami na palang pagbabago! ang ganda na ng luma kong iskwelahan. parang kelan lang... every now and then may mga taong lumalapit sa kin. nakakatuwa na kilala pa nila ako... at pare- pareho lang sila ng tanong sa kin. 'o kamusta na? san ka na ngayon? nagtatrabaho ka na?' kaya iisa lang din ang sagot. 'mabuti po, nag- aaral pa po.' nakakatuwang isipin na dati, isang batang paslit lang tingin nila sa kin pero ngayon, habang kausap ko sila nararamdaman ko yung pagiging proud nila sa kin.

inintroduce na yung guest speaker.naisip ko, kung ako kaya ang magsasalita, ano kayang introduction ang ibibigay nila sa kin? sa ngayon wala pa.hehehe. ..i could only make up what i can and wanted to achieve in the future. hmmm... ano din kaya ang sasabihin ko sa speech ko? siguro i'll never forget to say na ang tunay na kontribusyon ng pagiging carmelian sa tagumpay ng bawat gradweyt ay ang pagdevelop sa kanilang karakter. knowledge may be forgotten and replaced by new things but the values that were implanted in our hearts will forever be there. and guess, that's the best weapon we achieved by being a carmelian. we survived the world outside because we are equipped emotionally and most importantly, spiritually.

after the recognition, best treated us in sm. kasama pala nya si rhodsie sa harap. hehehe. actually, alam ko na darating sya at sya lang talaga ang pinunta ko. namimiss ko na kase ang babaeng yun. marami akong nalaman na mga bagay- bagay sa kanya... hmmm chismis ito. pero on top of that, nakakalungkot isipin na ganun ang nangyari...

'pumunta kami sa pahiyas that time. pinuntahan nya kami dun. natahimik na lang ako nung nakita ko sya. plunging neckline...may kulay ang buhok... hindi ko alam na buntis na pala sya nun. ayun. hi- hello lang.'

shocked? ako din. na- speechless din ako dun. of all people, i never thought na sya pa magiging ganun. buhay talaga. full of surprises.

oh craig!

muh favorite song now

ho humm

i've been reading my posts for the past 5 mos and i've realized how bad i' ve wrote. sorry guys, blame it to toxicity. my gray matter couldn't have stand the ruthless nights and days of reading and memorizing countless facts and trash from my biblical medical books that it seems so hard to force anything out from it. well, life as a bum could never been so uhm... boring. for my first week of staying in the house, full- time, i've read two topics 'viral hepatitis' and 'hypertension'. actually, im just half-way through with both hehe. hay, it seems med school has really gotten in me that i can't stand a day without reading anything.

yesterday could have been a more 'fruitful' day for me if only my phone didn't ran out of prepaid. darn. hate it when it happens. of all the time in the world... it happened in the very minute that i badly needed it. so there i was strolling in sm north ALONE. trying to see if i can get a reload anywhere and eventually find nothing. hay, i just can imagine papsi hating me for asking him where he was and if he's gonna do anything and not replying to him and worse, not being able to answer his calls. hay, when i felt my phone vibrating, i was already in the middle of elliptical road, about to go home.

on my way, i decided to pass by feu hospital to ask how much HBsAb is. my doctor prescribed the test on the last week of march but i wasnt able to accomplish it due to my very busy schedule. when i was there, i took a glimpse of the outpatient department and i saw a familiar guy sorting little pieces of paper in one of the drawers. 'totoo na ito, clerk na sila,' i said to myself as i felt a chill run down my spine.

i have my own share of anxiety about clerkship. well maybe my share is a little bit bigger than anybody else that i wanted to skip it na lang and just go straight into graduation. the only things that made me come to terms with my apprehension were the stories of my buddy, elaine, about her duties. i guess what really scare me about clerkship is not being able help save a life because i don't know things or i forgot about them... it's the feeling of inadequacy and self- frustration that i am really afraid of. that one day, in my rounds, im going to ask myself where the hell i was when things were lectured to us. and that im going to realize that ive learned nothing in those three years that i sit in the classroom listening and/ or trying to listen and in so many sleepless nights of forcing multitude of facts in my brain which is in near liquefaction due to lack of sleep and stress. i just hope i'll be able to remember my bud's stories when its my time to be a clerk, which is not so far from now.

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THE MANILA WALKING TOURS

ok, so i guess im a little frustrated when i learned about the walking tours and how literal those words would be. i've been interested the moment i've read one of papsi's friends entry about it that i wanted to try joining in one of the tours this vacation. well, touring manila on foot is ok with me but with this kind of summer's heat... yay! ayoko. im 99 percent sure, i wont be able to enjoy it.

I am a frustrated tourist and i wanted to go wherever and whenever my schedule and my budget permits. what i really like about going is not the actual place that i will be visiting but the experience of going there. for me, sitting at the back of the driver is the most fun part. that's the time when i can get in touch with my thoughts and my wild imagination. but most of the time i enjoy seeing a lot of things that we passed by, like a movie strip rolling in my window. ok, so i guess im not just a frustrated tourist but a frustrated director too. i often joked that what i really like to go into was film and directing and i was just fooled by my eyesight. pareho kaseng 'd' at 'r' yung umpisa at dulo. akala ko yun na yun (director at doctor) hehehe. hmmm, well that's another story.

so i guess i would be spending my second to the last vacation at home. i just hope my mom would be kind enough to arrange an outing before i go back to school like hear a mass in Manaoag or a swimming spree in one of subic's beaches. hmm.. i must still be dreaming.

salamat, salamat! (reposted)

'Lord i offer my life to you
everything i've been through
use it for your glory...'


Finally... im done with first semester of third year. grabe. until now im still speechless. parang panaginip lang :) hehehe.

yesterday, i took the remedials for my medicine subject(s) ----> may 's' to dapat kase medicine is comprised of 6 subjects: gastroenterology, pulmonology, cardiology, hematology, immunology, communicable diseases, plus two more: ward work and clinico- pathologic conference (CPC). the six subjects, i take an hour each a week. on major exams, those six subjects are given in just ONE exam. hehe. yes, nakakabaliw po. at mas nakakabaliw magremedials kase comprehensive yung exam. i cant believe i passed it. salamat talaga. salamat sa lahat ng mga prayers. it really helped me a lot.

in this subject, out of a hundred, only THREE students passed without taking the remedials. and only around 30 students passed the remedials.

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last week has been the longest week of my life. i go to school everyday looking at each of the departments' bulletin boards to see if they have already posted the list of students for remedials. it was nerve wrecking- going to every floor of the academe then going to the hospital and back again... looking at each and every piece of paper posted making sure my name isn't in it ... when i saw my name on medicine's list, i went to school the following day to study in the library. im glad my friends decided to study there too. mahirap kaseng mag- aral kapag frustrated at nag- iisa. most of the time, you tend to give up na lang. unlike pag may karamay ka di ba? hay... i'm just glad its over. i can relax now. do anything i want. watch t.v. until the programs run out. sleep all i want. lalala.. :)


PEDIA... this is the only optimistic department. why? because they chose to post the name of students who PASSED instead of posting those who did not. :) out of a hundred, only around 30 of us passed without taking the remedials.

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next semester will start a month earlier so we can have time to prepare for clerkship on october (hopefully). and hopefully it will be my last sem in the academe. hay, nakakalungkot lang kase mas madami sa min yung hindi na makakapag- clerk sa oct... i will miss them, especially ate noreen. di bale, iisa lang naman din kami ng patutunguhan.

the center pic is our 'unofficial' class photo taken by one of our lecturers in surgery.

center, my sub- section. counter-clockwise: (1) our classroom, (2) watching a procedure in gastro (3) our last CPC for the semester- waiting for the lucky one (4) ... and there she was trying to be calm while talking in front of the gods (5) bags, ako, sandz... ang magkakatabi sa CPC (6) arfie and me (7) sheila's place. she cooked us lunch on her birthday (8) groupmates ko sa ward (9) sandz and me

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the week before the finals, i bumped into my classmates in first year. clerk na sila! their duty will start on april 1. hay, im gonna miss them. especially ibyang, marika, mitch, and april. :)

april, jeremy, ibyang, me, ange, eli, hans.

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me, mariks, and mitch. si leo yung nasa likod... ganyan sya dala ng pagkabaliw sa papalapit na finals.

Pilipinas...in the midst of the storm

leyte landslide. with this amount of earth, it's no wonder it has buried two barangays in an instant...

state of emergency... a creeping coup... greedy politicians hunger for power...

the president...

let's admit it, whether we like her or not, she's the only one who can keep the country from those hyenas who wanted power for their own interest. when they succeed in ousting her, who among them will lead us? who will be the next victim?

like you, i also hope they wont succeed...

let's pray for peace

pieces from midterms

the day after my exam, i finally had the time to clean my table and arranged the reading materials i reviewed for the exam. i was surprised when i saw this much. hindi ko ma-imagine na naaral ko lahat ito. at take note, photocopy pa lang yan.. wala pa dyan yung mga books. huhuhu... pano na ko sa finals?


so what did the recent midterm exams has done to the high priestess?


hehe.. see the fruit of toxicity...



knock- out...






black and white.. sakit na ulo ko!








preso ng mga libro

kwentong balentayms

yesterday, one of my classmate surprised the girl he's courting by getting these P.T. undergrads to serenade her. well, all of us were shouting and giggling. hay grabe. para kaming bumalik sa highschool. some of the girls (me not included) even cried. it's just so mushy! hehe. hay, love can do many splendid things. its nice to feel young again.. at least young at heart. hehe.





mapot, our class president and ryan, the 'first gentleman' -to- be.

salamat ryan, naaliw talaga kami sa ginawa mo. hehehe.

my wish for valentines

i could not ask for more for my self... ive really had a lot of blessings this year. so for this valentines, i decided to dedicate my wish to my one and only papsi. i wish that you find the one who's gonna complete you. may you find each other at the right place and time... at sana she's gonna love you with a love na hindi nakakasakal hahaha. just found this song on the radio and i guess its becoming a little bit popular already. naisip ko lang, bagay to sa entry ko for today hehehe. i love you, papsi. i hope next valentine, you've already found the other half of your heart.


(I know you're out there baby, some where))
There's someone out there for me
((I know there's somebody out there))
I know she's waiting so patiently
((yeah))
Can you tell me her name
((Somebody tell me her name))
This life long search is goin' drive me insane
((That's right))
How does she laugh,
How does she cry,
What's the color of her eyes,
Does she even realize I'm here

Where is she
Where is she
Where is she
Where is this beautiful girl
Who is she
Who is she
Who's gonna complete my world
Where is she
Where is she
Where is this beautiful girl
Who is she
Who is she
Who's gonna complete my world

bad impressions ala he says she says

i should have posted this a long time ago but i guess, it just need a pretty good timing... like valentines. these are the messages that my luvie once sent me one time we've talked about expectations and the negative impressions that he had for me back then. well i guess what's really funny is that, some of the things he told me were actually my own impression to him. hmm... para pala kaming sira all those times. hahaha

he enumerated them and gave a comment afterwards. mas nakaktuwa yung mga comments... here they go

no. 1 maarte.. parang may reklamo sa lahat ng bagay.. im glad you're not that type

no. 2. selfish.. tipong ung self interest mo lang iicpn mo. this is my biggest mistake, though

no 3. egotist.. parang nkkuha ng slave nung nagka- bf.. well parang ako p nga ata ung na- iispoiled s situation natin e.hehe

no. 4. bimbo.. beutiful but no brains.. need to explain more? :) bcos you look naive b4, hindi ka pa active sa recitation nun.. pero na-prove ko naman na di un totoo after talking to u sa tiples. hehe

no. 5. bulagsak sa pera..mukha k kc dating happy-go-lucky type e..now? u cn pass as an ilocana

and no. 6... well, i'll keep that to myself na lang.. hahaha! hindi pwede dito. hahaha.

pre- valentine's date with the philharmonic orchestra and master chorale atbp

got home two hours ago. ate, jem, paps, elaine, june, and i were in shangri la to watch the free pre- valentines concert of san miguel philharmonic orchestra and master chorale. hehe. sobrang galing nila talaga. the crowd was really delighted especially when the orchestra played cueshe's stay and hale's the day you said goodnight. in fairness, they've given a new twist to the songs. i guess it's their way of saying, 'so anong akala nyo classic songs lang kaya naming tugtugin?'and i must say, they're beautiful. ryan cayabyab was not the conductor but he was there too. and he must have been very pleased to see so many people who went there to appreciate their music.




actually, i got the info while listening for almost a week in my celphone's fm radio. got the habit of turning it on when i'm getting sleepy from studying for my midterm exam. speaking of midterms, hay... sobrang pagod na pagod na ko... may exam pa ko sa monday hehe.




i informed elaine about the concert. she's really a fan of orchestras and chorales kaya ayun, kahit major exams next week pumunta pa din. haha. hay. i really missed talking to her and baffling about anything.. i also got the chance to meet her boyfriend, june. hmm... ang ganda ng bud ko ngayon di ba? hiyang sa third year. at syempre, iba na talaga din yung may someone who makes you feel beautiful.




PICTURES

these are the pics that i have not been able to post due to my very intoxicating schedule.


April!!! she's got a spiral fractured fibula... nadapa lang yan ha. sa sobrang bigat nya, hindi nakayanan ng buto nya. kya naku... tsk tsk.. hinay hinay lang sa pagkain. sorry kung tinatamaan ka. hahaha.






my fortune plant just bloomed its first flowers! its the first time ive seen one in my whole life. at grabe, sobrang bango talaga pag gabi. hanggang loob ng bahay naamoy.

dreaded pms

im in a 'state of depression' for almost a week now and i think i have to blame it to pms. i just hate it. this hormonal imbalance is affecting my studies. midterms is barely a week and i haven't finished anything yet. hay...

i've been texting friends asking how they've been doing... hoping i'll be feeling less lonely after the conversation. well, it did help but this hormonal thing is just so empowering. i just want this to be over really soon. sana bukas meron na para matapos na tong kaartehan na to. hahaha.

nakakainis talaga.

good thing i have a personal psychologist to aid me in my distress. hehe.

haaay....

this week's highlights

i was really looking forward to post something at the end of the week but geez, im getting busier and more anxious every day. midterms is fast approaching and i still have a lot of readings to catch up. hay, the life of a med student... moreso, the life of a third year med student. hehe. here are the highlights of my week.



on this site will rise....

• lobby entrance of the medical center

• commercial arcade ( i hope they'll have starbucks at least. hehe)

• 8 suites which are of two kinds, one has a kitchen of its own and the other, a receiving area. sorry, nawawala yung picture nito. i knew i had uploaded it somewhere....

tuesday

i had clinical ward. my patient this time suffers from drug induced gouty arthritis. he's very emaciated and in pain due to the lesions he's got in all his limbs.

the view ain't so good no? i just took a stolen photo of the guy. i dont have the guts to find a better view and mag- ala professional photographer pa dun. hehe.

thursday

i was able to watch a procedure in gastro. they inserted a PEG tube into the patient's upper gastroinestinal tract in case he's esophagus will undergo stricture due to his progressing laryngoesophageal cancer. so i advice you people, smoking is dangerous for your health and very dangerous for your appetite.

the finish product. the tube inserted in the epigastrium.

what's friday without surgery?

im beginning to love surgery. i thought when friday comes, i'll be sitting in the full eight hours trying my best to fight boredom. but hey, those guys from surgery really make our week everytime. they don't just teach us surgical stuffs but they give us good advices in the practice. and i love to hear their stories, thinking that someday, i'll be as successful and fulfilled like they are now. hmmm.

this friday, i became especially proud of being an feu- med student. I learned from Dr. Porciuncula (our lecturer for today) that Dr. Kim Shi Tan, the current head of our surgery department is the founding president of the laparoscopic cholecystectomy in the Philippines. wow talaga. next week, i'll be meeting him face to face for the first time. he's going to have a make- up class with us probably on wednesday. i hope this time he'll make it.

Dr. Porciuncula is the chairman of surgery in UDMC and also practice in FEU medical center and St. Luke's as a colorectal surgeon. sorry, i dont have a picture of him. nahihiya ako e... hehehe. but it's interesting to know that he loves photography. he's taking pictures anywhere he goes and shows them to class in his lectures.

our alumni from 25 years back are having their homecoming this week. i was in awe to see their proposed project of the new lobby etc of the hospital. parang ala- medical city ang dating! i'll try my best to take a picture of it next time. they're already starting the construction and i heard, the budget was tumataginting na 56 million pesos. and it's gonna be finished 8 months from now.

the picture was taken while waiting for our preceptorial class moderator in surgery.

toxic

in chaos i found order.
in letters i found wisdom.
in answers i found more questions.
in pages i found miracles
in pictures i found perfection

3 shtars

our much awaited holiday get together at the coffee bean and tea leaf in gateway last jan. 2. maayos vs nang- aakit na posing.

sa kanya

dec 26 05, tagaytay. we went to people's park in the sky (known before as palace in the sky) and prayed in the shrine of our lady of perpetual love. later, we went to a zoo (i didn't get the name). the last picture was in his sister's house in cavite where we stayed for the night... bagong gising lang :)

Namulat ako at ngayo'y nag-iisa
Pagkatapos ng ulan
Bagama't nakalipas na ang mga sandali
Ay nagmumuni kung ako'y nagwagi
Pinipilit mang sabihin na ito'y wala sa akin
Ngunit bakit hanggang ngayon, nagdurugo pa rin

Sa kanya pa rin babalik sigaw, ng damdamin
Sa kanya pa rin sasaya bulong ng puso ko
Kung buhay pa ang alaala ng ating nakaraan
Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin sa kanya

At sa hatinggabi ay nag-iisa na lang
Ay minamasdan ang larawan mo
At ngayo'y bumalik nang siya'y kapiling pa
Alaala ng buong magdamag
Kung sakali man isipin na ito'y wala sa akin
Sana'y dinggin ang tinig kong nag-iisa pa rin

Sa kanya pa rin babalik sigaw, ng damdamin
Sa kanya pa rin sasaya bulong ng puso ko
Kung buhay pa ang alaala ng ating nakaraan
Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin sa kanya

Sa kanya pa rin babalik sigaw, ng damdamin
Sa kanya pa rin sasaya bulong ng puso ko
Kung buhay pa ang alaala ng ating nakaraan
Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin…
Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin
Sa kanya...

group picture! si doc mary- anne cabrera yung naka- black. teacher namin sa pathology and lab. diagnosis. sya yung adviser ng group namin

memories of lab d.

dapat matagal ko nang pinost yung mga pictures namin sa laboratory diagnosis kaya lang busy sa school at ngayong sem lang ako nabigyan ni donna ng kopya. dons, salamat!

our first communtiy project... tsaraan!!! kumuha ng dugo at peripheral blood smear. hehe. sa sauyo yung napili naming community. merong christian church na tumulong sa min kaya dun namin ginawa ang mga kahindik hindik na pagkuha ng dugo. mwehehehe.

hala mark, piaiyak mo ata!

chika chika, kuha ng bp, sige pa arfie, ngiti lang habang nagsusulat. hehehe

o, biruin nyo, dinala pa namin sa site etong mga precious microscopes namin. pati na rin yung mga centrifuge machine, slides, at stains dala namin. para kaming moving laboratory.

girl power!