songs for you

for a few weeks now, ive been in a 'last song syndrome' mode. im singing from my most recent memory of the songs my ear caught somewhere. well some became my favorite since they depict what i feel for someone. hehe. theme song ang dating. here they go:

• sometimes i run/ sometimes i hide/ sometimes i'm scared of you/ but all i really want is to hold you tight/ treat you right/ be with you day and night/ baby all i need is time

• i hate how much i love you, boy/ i cant stand how much i need you/ i hate how much i love you boy/ and i just cant let you know/ that i hate that i love you so

• and i can't get you out of my dreams/now i know that you're a dangerous kind/ and your smile is tattooed on my mind.... yesterday i was feeling sad/ all i do today is trying to be brave/and no melody seems to soothe my mind/ and now i curse you for being so sweet and so kind
• So go on, go on, come on, leave me breathless/Tempt me, tease me, until I can't deny/ This loving feeling/Make me long for your kiss/ Go on (go on), go on (go on)/Yeah.../Come on

and here's the song on the top of my list:

• ang panalangin ko sa habang buhay/ makapiling ka/ makayakap ka/ yan ang panalangin ko/ at hindi papayag ang pusong ito/ mawala ka sa king piling/ mahal ko iyong dinggin

hay. this is really getting weird. it's a nice feeling having a crush once in a while. and its also kinda difficult knowing that the person i have a huge crush on is a total trash. oh well, truth bites. but hey, no one said i can't get kilig in secret. i would fantasize and dream that he's mr. perfect. he's my wish-to-be- perfect guy. i wouldn't hope though that i end up with him coz i know that would be the day that i will start cursing my life. haha. matalino na 'to!

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madel and i started our review for the boards. since news that we got said the ongoing aug boards is really tough. especially anatomy. (i think im going to befriend moore. and really try to have a special relationship with him this time). we started with patho at the beginning of this month. i chose my baby robbins (im trying to read books over reviewers now that i still have the time. focusing on topics or subjects that i'm not good at) and lend her my brs since her sister's still using theirs for her boards. well im nearly towards the end of the book and according to my sched, i should finish it by tomorrow. by monday i'll have pharma. hmm... im sticking on my sched. and so far so good.

We always want to have the perfect things. We look in every alley, in every corner, in every pocket, in every store of that something that we consider as perfect. I, for example, would not just go from every stall but from mall… to mall… to mall… just to find the perfect pair of shoes. We always want to attain the perfect things in this imperfect world. And so this is also the case when we’re looking for that person to love. We set a certain standard that the opposite sex must have or attain before we give him/her the title ‘the perfect one for me.’ Sometimes these standards were hard to find. Sometimes they don’t exist in just one person. Sometimes they don’t even exist at all. And so time flies and with every not so lucky guy that passes us by, we wonder, Will there be really a man that will fit our standards? When will Mr. prince charming come? Sometimes we get too preoccupied with these standards that we don’t notice what were missing. And then the guy that could have been the perfect one passes us by… and end up to another girl’s arms (…or lap hehe). And then that’s the only time we get to notice what we have just let slipped away… just when we do not anymore have the chance.
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Ok lang ba magpropose ang girl sa boy? As in ok lang? sa opinion ko, hindi ako sang- ayon dun. Masyado kase makapal yun. Isa pa walang challenge yun para sa guy. Ipakita mo naman na you’re worth to be treasured kase pinag hirapan ka. Isang araw pag naging ex ka nya, isipin mo na lang kung pano nya yun ikukwento sa iba. Na naging kayo kase ikaw nag propose. Haha. Hindi ba mejo masakit isipin na pano kaya kung hindi mo ginawa yun, magiging kayo kaya? Kung hindi ka kumilos, gagawa kaya sya ng paraan para maging kayo? Maaari kayang napilitan lang sya? O ayaw lang nya na mapahiya ka dahil kahit papano may pinagsamahan na din kayo? Hmm. Di ba mas nakakalito? Mas mahirap makita kung ano ba talaga yung tunay na damdamin nya para sayo? Mas mahirap malaman kung talagang handa na syang makipagrelasyon ulit? Hay nako. Iba na talaga panahon ngayon. Nananalo ang babaeng agresibo.