psyche sub group

these too shall pass

i do not intend to be a snob nor to hurt anybody's feelings for not returning text messages that were sent to me. i know you all care for me a lot but please do know, that inspite of all these things that i'm going through, i truly appreciate your thoughtfulness. you may have known that my relationship is going through tough times and i would not deny that i am deeply hurting because of it. the past has taught me a lot of things and now is the time to show that i have learned a lesson- that running away was never the solution. it may have saved me from grief for sometime but it didn't save me from living each day without a regret... the regret of not doing everything. and that hurts much much more. i am saying this not because i wanted you to understand me. you do not have to.but at least know where i stand. i know that i cannot guarantee that i will succeed in the end and knowing that, i also have to be prepared for the worse...

sabi nga nila: when it rains, it pour. i didn't know it can be a double- edged sword.

clerkship gave me a lot of my first. and one of them is getting a recommendation for dismissal. i do not want to discuss the details nor explain to defend what our subgroup did. for now i just wanted to leave it as that.

can i keep this distance for a few days more? somehow the silence gives me a lot of room to think and in a way gives me space away from the world. i cannot think about the future now. i live one day as it comes. that much i can only take for now.

please help me pray.