me

i'm sorry if saying how i feel now would make you angry/ irritated or whatever you call it. but this is me. they say women are hard to understand... in that part i do believe in that.( i do not have any intention for that matter to speak for every woman in this world.)

i am fickle minded... but being fickle minded doesn't mean to say what i'm saying are lies. they are my true feelings. for that certain point in time that i've said them, they are true...

the only lie i made in all of this was something that didn't even came out of my mouth. and yes, i was already punished for that. and i believe i have suffered more than i should.

i'm not perfect. no matter how much i try to be, i can never be a perfect daughter, friend, partner, or student. i have commited a lot of mistakes and i'm sure i'll commit more of them in the future. (i'm sorry, but i believe that is the essence of being a human- to commit mistakes and learn from them). at this point, i admit that it was my big mistake to say NEVER to something that i have no control of...

i have exerted so much effort to move on. i may say that it's progressive but my heart just can't let go.

we have only one life. i don't want to spend mine in waste. i can have all the riches and fame in the world, but those will never be enough to make a person feel complete. they say there's only one way... that is to follow your heart.

one day you will find your greatest love. someone that you will be willing to go against all the odds for that person... that you're willing to exchange anything and everything just to have a moment with her. and when that time comes, you will then understand.

if you're just worrying about me, thank you. don't worry i'll think a million times before i make my final decision and i'll ask GOD for guidance.