i've been pondering whether to write about this. i am quite hesitant to do it but this is my blog, right? and i should be free to write about anything coz if not, this blog is meaningless (and should be shut down immediately). well, i guess coz now, i just don't care. im tired. for the longest time ive been trying to repair something that seems to be too hard to fix.
whatever i do, things just don't seem to work. it's like im playing the part of an ill doer asking for forgiveness from a stone or as a criminal being avoided but well in fact i know deep in my heart that i don't deserve any of those.
we live only once and i don't want to spend my life chasing after people who do not consider what i consider as important, who could drop you like a hot potato anytime and take you back whenever like there's nothing that has happen. i have feelings too, right?
i just don't deserve it.
im tired.
i think this has finally got it's toll on me.
im stopping now.
maybe it's time for me to accept that there are things i cannot get back as it used to be. i shouldn't dwell on the past. and that i should accept the fact that not all people value relationships built for years.
i'll take away this thing on my chest that's been hurting me. i shouldn't have allowed it to be there in the first place. it's not even worth it.
so i say, ENOUGH. i'm tired. i'm moving on. and i make no apology with the way things has turned out with me.
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viernes, junio 25, 2010
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ah... (looking at my own philoz)don't make apologies. i mean, the small things, those small slips of the tongue; yeah, sure, by all means...but with major f**k-ups, don't.
and doing repairs by your lonesome, when solutions require two..that's a major no-no...
and of course, i don't really know what i'm talking about...well, some of the time...
;)
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