what will really set me free

Nakahanap na rin ako ng time to post. actually, i've been through a lot of things this past few weeks that i wasn't able to find the time to post. as usual, i've been busy with school work. but i guess i'm lucky that i still get to have decent sleep unlike last school year. cybermed had already blocklisted blogspot so i cannot anymore do my posting there when an opportunity comes. anyways, prelims starts next week. haven't set my review sked yet. probably later.

well, what really made the most impression was the realization that i had a weekend ago. i decided to see him eventhough i was not feeling well. i do not usually cancel appointments. i do not want others to feel the disappointment over something they have already anticipated and have looked forward to. i guess that's how much i love people who are important to me : ) the realization came when i was on my way home. i realized, seeing him was not making any good. i think when the next opportunity comes, i have to beg off. it's a shame that of all people, he was the one who endear me to the what should have been an oblivion. the irony of it all was that they don't even have any bit of a resemblance. i guess what he lacks was the trigger of the nostalgia. the truth... though hard to accept, is something i cannot evade now. i must admit, it required me a lot of courage to acknowledge it. i cannot let myself be, sooner or later, consumed by it. it must be done. the truth must be faced. it does not however mean that plans must be changed in doing it.