and then again...

it was one of those nights when i had a text chat with my regulary irregular textmate. the unusual thing this time is that i was the one asking questions.

'saan ka nag college tsaka anu course mo?'

'BA ust kalapit pla tyo skul b4?'

'hindi. kse fairview school ko nung med at for sure grad ka na nun'

i got confused about the timeline. so i asked

'ilang taon ka na ba?'

'24. kaw?'

that instant there i was. brokehearted just like that. hay buhay

trip to batangas

these were some of the pictures from our retreat in calaruega










on our last day, i went to madel's hometown (Bauan, Batangas). on our way there, we get to take a pic of fantasy world.



we had a side trip in taal. this is the taal cathedral. the largest church in asia.

updates updates

• this is my last day as a transplant/vascular intern. tomorrow i'll be rotating in urology.
  
• things i've learned in transplant:
• harvesting a kidney from a cadaver costs 100, 000 php with free air fare (in case the harvest will be done in cebu or davao. pwede na din bicol)
• a kidney transplant is worth a million or more.
• di lang pala kidney transplant ang ginagawa sa NKTI. meron din liver transplant.
  
• ang yayaman talaga ng mga transplant surgeons!!!
• remembering my pedia surg rotation:

this was an explore lap done in an 11 year old kid with a large abdominal mass which is maybe a sarcoma or a teratoma.

recent updates

• im through with my surgery rotation at the eagle last month. and now is my last day in peridatric surgery. since it's sunday today, wala akong pasok hehe. nakaka- high talaga ang mga nakita kong cases sa pedia surgery. dun ako nakakita ng true to life craniopagus (conjoined heads) at hermaphrodite. at iba talaga mag assist sa surgery ng mga bata. kahit exlap na e hindi nauubos ang energy sa kaka- retract. hehe. pero sa isang banda, kawawa naman sila dahil bata pa sila, andami na nila pinagdadaanan sa buhay nila.
  
• nung friday, nag bike kami ni kokoy sa circle. ansaya pala! hehe. inabot na kami ng gabi doon at pagsapit ng dilim e madami akong napansin na mga guys na naka maong at sando with matching maliit na backpack. patambay- tambay lang sila dun at kahit ilang beses na namin sila naiikutan sa aming pagbbike, e andun pa din sila sa may mga bato or bench, nakaupo na parang may hinihintay. tanong: ano kaya ang pakay nila sa circle? at sino kaya ang hinihintay nila? hehe.
  
• may bago na kong baby. dumating na sya! ang puti puti at magaan. ang name nya ay mac. :)
  
• gusto ko mag swimming!!!! wala bang mag- aaya jan?
  

the past few weeks...

airsoft with my boy buds

bicol med mission. picture taken at phivocs viewing deck

my last day at the community. my big group together with the city health officers of marikina

how's my week PART 2

2nd week of the love month

• sunday was the burial of my uncle anseng who died of liver cancer. mom wasn't able to attend because she was still in the hospital recuperating.
  
• monday, mom went home already. i was absent then coz i have to take care of paying the bills and all the rest. its hard when you are the eldest 'available' child. you have to learn how to stand up for your family. it was a nice learning experience.
• wednesday, i was into binge eating. it wasnt due to an emotional crisis but it was because of the yummy danggit and sweet fish skeleton from davao. i matched it with diced kamatis which i brought from philcoa after madel and i went to the photocopy-han and isaw (darn, naubusan ba naman kami!?!) at UP and itlog na pula from pateros. my roommate and i really loved it! meron pa kaming appetizer na chicharon from bulacan (the best hehe) dipped in spiced vinegar. hmmm... it was a real delight! taob ang 2 gatang na sinaing hehe.
  
• thursday was valentine's day. i woke up happy which was surprising. bogs was the first one who greeted me and it really means so much that i was given importance by my friends. he told me he planned to wake up at midnight to greet me. he wasnt able to do that for some reason but considering his thoughtfulness was enough. lunch time neil called and told me to go to gateway at 7pm. i asked why but he was evasive. the call just gave me a feeling he's going to set me up on a blind date. so there i was todo ayos and todo bihis. haha. i arrived late at kinakabahan. neil, koy and reg were all there. then i found out i wasn't set up with anybody! they just planned a dinner date for the singles in our barkada. we had dinner in seafoods island and had boodle feast which was really yummy then had starbucks afterwards. bongga talaga coz before we started our meal the boys handed me a bouquet of roses with different colors. i was really touche'd! i'm so thankful to have friends like them. da best!
• friday (today) koy fretched me in my apartment since he did some business near my place. hehe nakakatuwa naman talaga sila.
• on sunday, neil and i are going to have our badminton match hehe. sa wakas tuloy na. and hopefully, i'll still have the energy for airsoft in the afternoon.

how's my week

• sunday, i went out with my boy buds. we decided to go to the mall of asia since jom, who just went home recently (he's now based in guam) , haven't seen the place. we watched the movie clover field (which i do not recommend for those with weak stomach because of its 'dizziness' effect) and ate at an italian resto which i forgot the name, and of course picture taking to the max. john, neil, reg, koy, jerin and i stayed a couple of hours more. we decided to eat at a fancy crepe resto overlooking the bay. then we headed for the baywalk for more picture taking.

halos kumpleto...

kami na lang ang natira



• the guys fetched me at my place in q.c. while at the car, koy bursted out his 'panghihinayang.' Quoting him: 'ikaw kase hawak mo na sa leeg si dryn pinakawalan mo pa. e di sana kasal nyo yung inattendan namin' hmmm... i didn't expect one of them felt (and see our friendship) that way. akala ko si mom lang nanghinayang e. ayun tuloy, what i all throughout our journey was explain my sideto them. promise i'm going to write another entry about this ish.



• mom was confined at the national kidney and transplant institute (NKTI) last monday. she had pelvolithotomy with cholecystectomy the following day. i was able to stay in the operating room throughout the whole procedure due to my mom's request which, im telling you was not a good experience... she's ok now. she's been walking around the room already and can go to the bathroom without a companion. she's going home on monday. thanks for the prayers!



• spending the nights at the hospital all week was like going on perpetual duty minus the never ending 'lakaran' that is. i was sleeping at the chair all week (so dabs can sleep on the sofa). My back really hurts! i miss my bed...



• my uncle whom we fondly called tata anseng died yesterday. he had liver cancer. it was just sad that it was barely a month since my uncle totong died (due to lung cancer). mom won't be able to be at the wake since my uncle's burial is tomorrow already. my the good Lord grant them eternal repose. i'll miss them...

Future agenda

• i've been gaining a lot of weight already and my tummy would testify to that. hehe. ive started wearing a velcro belt which i knew from med school doesnt really work. i still use it though to remind my self that i shouldn't give in to those yummy, mouth watering, eye popping indulgences...my favorite, my comfort foods.



• my diet plan was to do exercises like doing abs crunches and brisk walking to the q.c. circle, which is just near my place, or to the grocery. i also intend to do biking in the afternoon at the circle. neil already promised to play badminton with me during our free sundays. also, im going to try airsoft with my other boy buds which is a good form of stress release too.

the new bond movie is coming soon

the 22nd of the spy series will be shown this year and is entitled Quantum of Solace. im so excited already! sana ipalabas na sya soon!

"There is revenge, a fight within him and a need to do his job, to solve this riddle that has been given him. Everything that he understood about the world has been turned upside down ... because he has fallen in love" - Daniel Craig

DOH's interns at the lung center's conference

last month, all of us attended the 2- day conference at the Lung Center. we had a lot of fun shopping for freebies. sayang lang some went home early so they weren't included in this pic

my best friend's wedding part II

in tagaytay, we also had fun taking pictures. talaga naman game na game sa mga posing!

'tabihan nyo naman ako'

'hay john, sayang hindi natin makita ang lake.'

coffee toast. to our friendship from then until forever

si reggie at ang tissue

posing a la matrix by reg and neil

mga pare, san ba lakad natin? nakontak nyo na ba ang mga epektos? kelan ang deliver? (hehehe)

cute namin?

my new primary pic at friendster. kunyari stolen shot ito.

look at this house! it looks old but it's beautiful.

the bridesmaid and the best man

the couch

men in black

i love this pic! picture perfect

isa pa ulit!

may mini pond din sa sonya's. for nature lovers talaga

and off we go to the wedding

kasama ang anghel sa gilid ng simbahan

here comes the bridesmaid

church on the hill

my best friend's wedding

last saturday, neil, koy, reg , and i went to tagaytay for dryn's wedding which was held the following day. we met bogs in sm dasma . john followed us after attending another wedding in batangas. here are the pics.

can't resist - dryn and diane went to sunrise hotel to meet us. they were staying at sonya's garden but because were so makulit, they came over to see us.

late dinner at dencio's - john arrived at the hotel at around 10pm. after playing a few rounds of uno stacko, we had dinner at dencio's. it was almost midnight when we arrived.

picture muna while waiting for the food

afterwards, we decided to hang out at starbucks.

this was taken at the lobby of sunrise hotel

at sonya's garden - pic muna with the groom before the wedding

wedding at church on the hill - dryn's bro was my groom's man. pic was taken at the wedding march

at the reception held at splendido country club -the bride and the bridesmaid


i lost the game! - and as a consequence,i got the bouquet and the guy (diane's high school friend... sorry i forgot his name) got the garter.

our pic with the couple

“It's a look patients get in their eyes. There is a scent, a smell of death; some kind of 6th sense and when the great beyond is headed for you, you feel it coming.

Dr. Meredith Grey

after the heat

>hay salamat nawalan na ko ng lagnat. thank you mama mary!

natapos ko na rin yung video hehe. ready na ko ipakita kay papsi ang produkto ng aking pagkakasakit. hehe.

oops, hindi pa pala ko nakakagawa ng message ko.

hay im just so glad im getting well.


> ngayon nga pala yung stag party ng aking bestfriend. hay. sana maging ok naman at mag enjoy talaga sila. hirap lang na naging girl ako. hindi tuloy ako pwedeng sumama sa kanila. pero ok lang dahil kung sa beerhouse lang naman sila pupunta mamyang gabi, hindi din naman ako makakarelate at lalong hindi ako mag eenjoy. hahaha

hindi rin naman sila maliligayahan kung ako ang lalabas sa cake. tsaka hindi ako magkakasya dun in the first place.

feeling cold though in heat

> yesterday i went home. hindi ko na kaya. may sakit na nga talaga ko. pharyngitis lang naman sana (hindi na naghhypertrophy yung tonsils ko napagod na ata. hehehe). last december pa to actually at nagmatigas akong hindi uminom ng antibiotics. dinaan ko lang sa hexetidine. umokey naman until last monday, ayun na. i wasnt feeling well already. wala naman akong ubo at sipon until now.

> tuesday i became feverish so i decided to buy antibiotics na. sinilip ko sa salamin ang aking pharynx and to my surprise, puro exudates ang nakita ko. it was not the petechial type. its worse than that. para talagang may 2 pillars ng exudates sa magkabilang gilid ng oropharynx ko. at to worsen things up, andami pang mga ulcers hanggang pharyngeal walls. yun na ata ang 'pinaka' sa lahat ng infection sa lalamunan na nakita ko.

> so there i was. hindi makakain. puro soup lang ang kaya kong i-swallow kaya naman hinang hina ako. the following day was immunization day at my health center. at the middle of my pagbabakuna, umatake ang hyperacidity ko (secondary to decreased food intake, vitamin c and paracetamol). kaya ayun. nagpaalam na ko ng maaga.

> sayang hindi ko naipakita kay doc nani ang napaganda kong pharynx na pang medical archives ang dating.

> today, absent ako. buti na lang naglilipat kami ng health center at hindi na talaga ako pinapasok. i still have fever na umaabot pa din ng kwarenta kahit naka antibiotics na.

> hmp. papalitan ko na nga yung antibiotic ko.

> wrong timing talaga. pupunta pa naman kami ni madel sa batangas this weekend. pano ko makakasama nyan?

> sana bukas ok na ko.


waaah si dabsy nag uwi pa ng dounuts at kisses! kainis!

internship et cetera

yesterday, i went to USTH to find out what happened to my application there. well, good news is that, my name was posted for interview. bad news was, the interview took place last september 27. i talked to the secretary hoping to get another chance for an interview but sad to say, the doctors already decided not to accept interns for november. hay sayang. it will be a good opportunity pa naman to know my paternal roots. my relatives from my father's side really intrigues me. my dad didn't have the chance to know them because my paternal grandfather died when my dad was only 5 years old and he grew up in my lola's hometown.

when we were driving home from the grad ball, dabs was telling us she remember lola told her once that they were lolo's second family. my mom knew someone who has our surname but only too late that he died before she had the chance to introduce him to my dad. but my mom swears that the person has some resemblance of my dad. i wonder if its also true what my intern in jose reyes (and graduate of UST) told me that i look like the person he knew in UST bearing also the same surname. are those people really connected to us? do we have the same roots? im hoping to find that out in the near future or at least before my dad dies. i may have lost the chance but i'll sure find another way.