bakit nga ba?

It was monday noon as i was having lunch alone in the cafeteria when a familiar face walked towards my table. 'oi, ba't nag- iisa ka?' i knew it was only a way of saying 'hi' to an old classmate but i can't help but get affected.

so bakit nga ba ako nag- iisa?

1. absent si ate noreen, ang nag- iisa kong kasama. actually, lagi naman syang umuuwi sa apartment nya tuwing lunch (with or without platings) so mag- isa lang ako on that precious hour of the day

2. hindi ko na classmates sina marivi and co. ang lagi kong kasama dati sa lunch, sa classroom, sa pag- uwi. hay, i really miss them. minsan, i can't help but wish na sana sana sana hindi na lang nangyari ang nangyari. can't turn back time. it's done and i'm alone.

3. hindi ko naging classmates si jho. her barkada was the first group i went with. syempre first year pa yun. things changed. people redirect their sails and moved out from med school. ayun, only the three of us were left- jho, marvin, and me. jho and i were in different sections (at dadalawa lang ang section namin. aba naman, akalain mong hindi pa kami naging mag- classmates!). at si marvin, iniwan na talaga kami. he's promoted and were not! but we still get a chance to talk to each other. classmate ko sya sa radio class which is every monday, 1 pm. last monday, i couldn't help but tell him my sentiments. aba, sabi nya, sana nga maging midyear na lang sya para makasama nya kami ulit. nakakamiss daw kasi... hay, nako marvin. if it will cost you your being regular, wag na lang. kami na lang dito.

4. walang papsi at tina. hay, obvious ba, hindi na to college at wala na kami sa PLM. hay nostalgia's setting in. wla bang background music dyan?

5. wala ako sa PLM. hay, plm i miss you. bakit nga ba hindi na lang ako sa plm nag- med. why am i here in a place where individualism is the name of the game?

hay nako. this is hopeless. mas mabuti pa, gagayahin ko na lang yung girl sa movie who said '...i'm not here to flirt...' (ano nga ba yung movie na yun?) hay nako, hala, tell it to yourself... i'm here to become a doctor. never mind if i'm alone... sigh

bakit nga ba (da 2nd)

hay nako, ang bababa ng mga platings ko. kase naman!!!! hindi ako magaling mag- memorize! darn, i can't make myself memorize a handout that i don't understand what it's all about. heck, kaya nga ako umaatend ng mga dull lectures para naman pag nagbigay sila ng handouts hindi ako mahihirapang maka- relate. well maybe this is the reason why i'm having a hard time in second year- ayokong mag- memorize!!!

wag na nga lang yan, let's move on to other things. yung masarap ikwento. let's talk about my crushes. hehehe

from politics, former colleagues Sec. Mike Defensor and Rep. Francis Escudero are now from different sides of the fence. but even with different views and opinion regarding the hello garci and the rest of the impeachment brouhaha, these two rise above all others because they have retained their diplomacy. you wouldn't see them in the news saying nasty things about each other. i must say, they were raised very well. i hope there will come a time that the two of them will be on the same side.

DENR Sec. Mike Defensor

Sorsogon Rep. Francis Escudero

Jay Perillo. he's one of the finalist in channel 2's search for a star in a million season 2. this 100% chinese is really a hearthrob and a chickboy (he already had 24 girlfriends). i like the quality of his voice. it's somewhat rusty which makes his singing more interesting and it must've also added to his appeal. mhy, but this guy is only 18! well then, he's my first crush who is younger than me.

blush*

now i feel better.

note: this entry was drafted on the posted date -hp